Welcome! I’m Bec, a tattooed, pansexual Libra who’s the mom of two teenagers (a boy and a girl), and happily married to my high school sweetheart for twenty years. My personality type is INFJ. I’m a lightworker. I have very recently become a Seer (for more information, see my posts on the third eye). I avidly read the work of mystics and philosophers. I’m a (casual) Buddhist and work as both a designer and published author. I believe all religion reflects portions of the truth, but none of them ARE the truth, and that religion is often used as a tool of fear rather than love.
I have always been on a private, personal quest for answers about who we are and why we’re here. This is a big part of myself that I haven’t been able to share publicly, or even with many of those I love, so I’m sharing it here. I understand we each will only understand and accept what’s right for us in that moment of our journeys. It’s important to accept only what feels true for you, and leave the rest.
Over the past five years there has been a lot of upheaval in my life, including the sudden death of my beloved brother, and estrangement from toxic biological family members. Though not formally diagnosed, I have symptoms of CPTSD from childhood abuse, including repressed memories / memory loss. In my journey to find peace and heal from my past, I’ve experienced a spiritual awakening. This has intensified my quest to understand the secrets of life. I’ve had powerful, personal experiences with things beyond this reality which are not easily explained, but which are just as real to me as my job and family.
I’ve been pondering life’s biggest questions for what feels like all day, every day, for as long as I can remember. Somehow, those big questions don’t ever get aired in daily conversation the way I wish they were. This blog is my way to vent my thoughts on reality, our lives, and ourselves to the cosmos, to search for kindred spirits, and to hopefully shed some light for those who feel trapped in the dark. I don’t claim to be an expert in anything but my own perceptions, which you are invited to judge for yourselves and take or leave as you wish. My intention is for Meaning of Life to be a tool of connection and compassion—a non-judgmental sanctuary of loving hope for anyone who needs it. When my brother left us, I found myself cherishing the little glimpses into his heart that he left behind. This blog is also that for me for my kids, so if they ever need guidance or a glimpse into who their mom was deep down, they have it. Thank you for visiting! I’m so glad you’re here.