Meaning of Life

May 9, 2022May 9, 2022

Seer Diaries: The Thinning of the Veil

Whew! I’ve been in the thick of it. And overwhelmed. To recap, my third eye opened a few years ago now. Once that happened, it sent me quickly down a path I never thought I’d be on. Now, I’m living every day as clairvoyant (clear seeing), clairaudient (clear hearing), clairsentient (clear feeling), and claircognizant (clear knowing). That means I see things (hear things, feel things, and know things) past this dimension.

Everything on the other side is closer now than I ever thought it could be. The visions are intense, the messages constant, the truth of it all far above my understanding, and the work all-encompassing. It’s been a lot – as much as I can handle and then some, to be honest. I’ve been pulling from within to find my strength and to keep on keeping on. Like so many others, I’ve been taking it all day by day and moment by moment.

The Meaning in the Messages

In my last post I’d mentioned a date that I’d been warned about in February. I can report now that it was definitely a date solely for me. Since then I’ve been given several other dates, each of which brought an intense stepping up in my connection to the other side. On each of those dates, I felt massive energy work being done through me. This process would have been terrifying on an existential scale if I hadn’t already built up immense trust in my contacts on the other side. It was painful, exhausting, and so very confusing. My physical and etheric forms have been upgraded and at this point the veil for me is super thin.

I still have infinitely more questions than I have answers. But this is a ride I signed up for long before this incarnation began. I’m doing what I came here to do, even if I don’t understand what that is! For me, it’s been all about trust and going with the flow.

What I See

I don’t want to get into many specifics, because it really doesn’t matter. But for the curious, I don’t see the spirits of deceased humans. Rather, I connect to the part of my soul (the bulk of my soul energies) not currently incarnated in this plane of existence. We don’t incarnate with our ENTIRE soul, because it would be way too much energy for the frail human form to contain. Rather, we send a little spark of our spirit (containing only the bits we need to do the work we’ve planned to do in that life) to Earth, which is later reunited with the rest of our spirit, waiting on the other side. This is why when loved ones die, they are greeted by loved ones who may still be incarnated somewhere (and why they’re not missing or busy).

So when my Sight is connected, I see through the point of view of my soul on the other side of the veil. I always and only see through my own point of view over there – what that “part of me” is doing, the surroundings, the people, etc. I can hear them, feel them, and have recently been able to use telepathy to connect with them.

Now, in my experience, everyone on the other side is fully aware that the lot of us humans are scaredycats. They know we’re easily overwhelmed and likely to be absolutely terrified of anything strange and new to us. This is why they tend to treat me like a small child who needs LOTS of protecting for my own good.

They fuzz out most of what I see or sense over there, dulling the information coming through. I’ll see shapes and outlines as people move around, but that’s it. I can focus to break through the fog, and things will sharpen. But they don’t want me to do that, so I try not to! Instead, I let them judge what I need to see.

When they do let me see with full clarity, my Sight over there is WAY better than my eyesight here. It’s crisper, more detailed, more colorful, and more beautiful than anything I’ve seen on Earth.

I can “hear” the thoughts of my other self, and it ususally makes little sense to me without having any of the background or context data to pull from. The veil separates us from the all-knowing state of being we’re used to in spirit form. And incarnating as human means we have amnesia of everything outside of this place. This is why I don’t remember them, or that life I’m experiencing over there, or what I’m doing, or why. But my expanded senses are how they’ve been able to feed me messages for things they do think I need to know.

What’s Coming

There is change coming – quite soon (summer maybe?) – that is so profound it will alter all of our lives completely. This is true no matter where on Earth you are located, who you are, or what else is going on for you. It will be a total rewriting of what we know reality to be. I’m not just talking a shift socially or in the political realm, but a reckoning that will redefine our experience of life.

Love Conquers Fear

This is why so many negatively-polarized people on Earth are desperately trying to use fascism, totalitarianism, authoritarianism, and dictatorship to seize power and resources. It’s because they know the game is over.

But please understand, they have already lost. They have no chance of success in what they’re trying to do now. Sure, in the short term they will try to make life miserable for as many as they can. But this change is coming whether you are currently incarnating or are already passed over to the other side. Any current suffering is helping to pay off or rebalance accumulated karma.

All of this show of force and cruelty from the Earthly rich and powerful is the equivalent of an epic toddler tantrum. They’re making sure we all know how upset they are, and how they don’t want to do what’s expected of them. But guess what? They have no choice! They’re not in charge, and the literal Powers that Be are disgusted by such behavior. All beings are loved, but not all behavior of human beings is loved. In fact, existence and even the planet herself are quite DONE with this kind of destruction and fearmongering.

Patience is the Key

My friends on the other side won’t give me specific dates or a timeline, but we’re getting close. Very close! Anticipating what’s ahead can create fear or anxiety too, which they don’t want. They want us to take care of ourselves, to hope, to have faith, and to envision a beautiful, peaceful world of prosperty and connection so that we can help birth it into existence.

For me, the energy has been getting higher and noticably more intense BY THE DAY. That’s one way I know we’re very, very close to this event. We’re ramping up, and there’s no going back. There is no possible timeline where this event doesn’t happen.

I’ve seen the world to come, and I’ve see what this Shift will entail. All I can say is that it will be worth whatever we need to endure to get there.

Be good to yourselves friends. Sending you love and light!

What’s New in My Life as a Seer

Recently, I’ve had every single one of my questions answered. I know now who I am, where I come from, why I’m here, and what I need to do. I even know where I’ll be going when this life is over, because I’ve seen that place now many times. Honestly, the specifics don’t even matter in that you don’t need to know what my answers are. You just need to know it’s absolutely possible to find every single one of your answers as well. They’re found in doing the hard work of self-growth. You need to surrender to the process already unfolding in your own life. Say Yes to relearning everything you thought you knew.

The work I’m doing with beings on other levels of existence utilizes every single bit of my energy and focus. It’s spiritually grueling, sometimes physically painful, all-encompassing, and totally exhausting. It’s also miraculous, wondrous, beautiful, magical, invigorating, and absolutely worth it. That energetic work is much more taxing than my daily life of raising two kids, living in mid-pandemic America, and working as a designer every day. Working from home in relative isolation has been a weird reprieve. It’s forced my attention to my own world. There’s no need to engage in the chaos constantly churning outside. It’s been a real blessing. The isolation has been freeing, since I’m surrounded with so many beings at night. Each of whom I work intimately with in ways I don’t pretend to understand at all. My boring days give me breathing space in order to tackle the challenging work that comes at night.

What Comes Next

I have received specific messages about what is coming. For example, I know my children will have a spiritual awakening. For one of them, it has already begun. They’re experiencing some of the same ascension symptoms I wrote about in this blog, long ago. They see auras, and spirit lights in greater and greater numbers.

My husband, the skeptic, has even begun experiencing things that are unexplainable. They match up perfectly with my own experiences. For him, and for the kids, this is happening not because of anything I have done. They have each made the choice to do the work required of them in order to move forward. I’m proud of them, and I’m always here to lend support and insight, if needed.

I’ve also been told of specific dates coming up in the very near future. The first is February 21st, 2022. I don’t know what is going to happen on these days — whether they’re of significance for me alone, or for the world at large. I’m excited to find out!

For all of the rest of you, my lovely readers, I can tell you that we are in a time of trials. We are being tested in very real ways. How we each do in these tests will result in direct consequences for what we experience next. The change will be momentous! There are basically only two ways to go – two paths. One leads back to intense negativity, suffering, and old ways of doing things. The other leads upward, to a better, kinder, more loving world. In it, we each will have what we need to flourish and find our purposes. We are not meant to spend our days working long hours at tedious jobs for the sole purpose of buying more and more material things, until our bodies give out and we slowly die. We aren’t meant to slave away for the profit of the few corrupt currently in power. Our power is our own. It’s time we take it back.

Choose Love and Growth

If that’s what you want, you don’t need to DO anything. Just choose within yourself to surrender to your lessons and your path. Have faith in wherever it’s bringing you for your highest good. Invite the light and love of Source into your heart. This is a free will planet. In order for help to be sent your way from the higher realms, you need to ask for it. Sadly, it seems to be very easy for human beings to choose pessimism, hatred, and despair, but much more challenging to choose love, growth, and change.

No matter what happens in the outer world in the months and years to come, if you work to grow and enrich your own soul, and climb to the higher path, your life will improve. You will progress to a life where you can become the highest, most glorious version of yourself. When we pledge our service to the highest good of all Creation, Creation works on our behalf, in gratitude. We are all intrinsically connected. We are all One. Together, we can make the impossible possible.

Love and blessings, friends.

September 4, 2021September 4, 2021

Lessons in Holding Firm Boundaries While Keeping a Vulnerable, Open Heart

It took me 37 years to finally stand up to my abusive mother. When I did it, I did it without any support while literally surrounded by my entire extended family. We were at a bowling alley on New Year’s Eve night. She viciously tore into me while we stood adjacent to our rented lanes, filled to overflowing with people. My family members kept happily bowling while we fought. No one intervened. Few of them even looked in our direction. It was my breaking point. The straw that broke the camel’s back, if you’d like. A “small” thing that pushed me firmly over a line.

From that point forward, I had two conditions before I would interact with her again: she would need to show me a measure of basic respect, and display remorse for her actions. That’s all. And friends, that was December 31, 2015. She never tried to give me what I asked for.

Not only are we estranged, but she took all of my relatives with her when she went. My own long voyage towards simply saying NO to her had left me shaken to the core. What made it even harder was no one went out of their way to make sure I was okay. No one reached out, except those who sought to lure me back in and accept that’s “just how she is”. I received a single, kind Facebook message from a cousin who I never heard from again afterward.

That was my biggest lesson in how hard it is to skirt the line between strength and vulnerability. It is HARD to manage both at the same time. Human instinct tells us to shield our wounds and repel any attempts made by others to get close. We build walls. Shun those we disagree with. Sever ties. And ignore the fact that part of our soul will always love those we’ve hastily sliced from our life. The open-hearted are frequently targeted by abusers. They have such a hard time resisting the urge to go back – choosing love over strength. While on the other side of things they are choosing strength over love.

It is a rare thing to find the slender, winding path between self-confidence and compassion.

Another Lesson – The In-Laws

My first reaction to meeting my husband’s extended family was, “wow, they’re so normal!” They weren’t like my relatives, who are all about appearances and performing perfection. His family was relatable. Easy to talk to. Funny. Interesting. And there were so, so many of them!

Fast forward a few years. My mother and father in law have severed contact with nearly all of their living family. It happened because of greed following the deaths of the elders. And because of others getting lured by the anti-vaxx, anti-mask, republican cult mindset. The main disagreements were all between family in their generation. But close relationships between cousins have broken now too.

I see this happening to them. I’ve been there. But I have the benefit of perspective. And I miss my relatives so much. All of them. I tell my husband there’s a path where he can draw a boundary but still love them. But he and his family feel “that’s just how they are”. They are done. It makes me sad.

Reaching Out – Social Media Version

Last night, I started a new account on a social media platform I’ve never used before. I reached out to all of the in-laws on there that I’ve always enjoyed spending time with. People I’ve never argued with, but who are on the “other side of the line” in the family feuds. When a few of them flat-out rejected my attempt, I have to be honest – it stung. Instantly, I felt regret, shame, and questioned whether I’d done something wrong.

But I made myself sit with those feelings, and keep my heart open as I listened for guidance from within. It requires patience, and a lot of tolerance for discomfort. Bravery. Humility. A willingness to be dead wrong.

And a miracle happened. I got an answer! I looked into my heart and where the hurt had been was now the gift of insight waiting. It was like a message in a bottle, sent to me from the other side. This is where all of our guidance comes from.

It told me maintaining an open heart IS strength. Being vulnerable IS brave. Boundaries are a loving act. We all deserve to decide others need to respect us more than they have in the past. It’s not wrong to stand up for ourselves. But to do that AND extend a hand across the line is what takes real guts. It’s what we need so much more of in this world. We need to be able to reach out to those we disagree with. We need to hate the actions, not the people. To find ways to have differing opinions, but still love each other.

If the tables were turned, I would want someone to reach out. And I did! I was there, hoping someone would find the inner strength to do that, and risk the rejection.

We can’t stop reaching out to people just because our hand might get smacked away.

The Challenge – The Shift

When I received that message, it transformed everything for me. My hurt lifted, leaving warm tranquility and determination to trust myself.

You don’t need me to tell you this world is filled to brimming with differing opinions. People are drawing lines between themselves all over the place, for many reasons. It’s separating us. A chasm is forming inbetween. Some of us HAVE TO find a way to keep reaching across the gulf. The only way we ride out the shift to a better, kinder world is by doing it together. The higher path requires setting ego aside and admitting when we’re wrong. It necessitates respect, remorse, and willingness to work hard to do better next time.

There’s a lot I wish I had done differently. There are ways I should have tried harder, spoken up, or acted when I did not. I do regret that. But I did the best I could. If any of my relatives reached out to me today, I would listen if they showed me respect and remorse in return. That’s all I require. My door, and my heart, is open. I wish them all happy, fulfilling lives, include them in my prayers every night, and send them my love.

We can do this. It doesn’t have to be either or – pride or shame. If you step past pride and are willing to dip a toe in the shame, you will discover there is a path. It winds between the two and leads onward toward a more expansive, kinder existence. I hope we all find the way.

Love and blessings, friends.

July 25, 2021December 11, 2021

Seer Diaries: A New Normal & Going It Alone

The Universal Truth About Going it Alone

One truth we all tend to run from is that we are solely responsible for our selves and our lives. We like to blame what’s going on in the world (especially right now) or the people around us. But the hard reality is that when all is said and done our karma is no one else’s fault. Our choices are ours to own up to. I believe not only in an afterlife but that not a single one of us can escape facing judgment for every single decision we made on Earth. What we do now directly manifests where we will go next.

I have done a lot of observing over the course of my life. Every single person I know who is struggling with something is currently, actively blaming someone or something else for it. Every single one. They might even just say “well, I was born this way so there’s nothing I can do – I’m a victim of circumstances.” This is a load of crap.

Yes, each of us have been given monumental challenges to face. But we are not given more than we can handle. It’s on us to reach down deep into our gut and find the strength to do what needs doing. Until we do that, we will keep facing exactly what we’re running from. You can delay your lesson but you can’t escape it or bypass it. If you find your life keeps getting harder and more difficult as time goes on, that’s because you’re avoiding your assignment and the universe is putting the squeeze on you. So take a hard, close look at exactly what you’re running from and face that. Put all of your energy into that task. It’s the only way out. It’s the only chance you have of finding peace and happiness.

My Challenge – When Normal is Beyond Comprehension

I don’t have anyone to share this stuff with, so it’s still difficult to talk about it, but I’m going to try. And I don’t care if you don’t believe me or think I’m crazy. I admit to my ignorance of nearly everything that’s going on at every level. But what I do know is that I’ve opened a door that has not and does not close. The things I experience have only become more consistent and continuous as a part of my daily and nightly life. This isn’t a once in a while thing. It’s ALWAYS happening.

Last night I returned from vacation several states away from where I live. It was the first time since 2019 we’ve been anywhere, so it was stressful and exhausting as well as exhilarating. Part of my stress was in seeing what would happen with my Sight – how it would manifest when I was so busy and out of my element in a new place. It was astonishing to feel my gifts come along with me and continue despite sleepless nights and stressful days. I received visions telling me they knew where I was and what I was up to.

I guess I want you all to understand that I am never alone anymore. I am always with multiple beings who are not part of this dimension (and yes, I know how that sounds but it’s the best way I have to explain it with words, which are very limiting). There is such a consistency with how they appear and who they are. I recognize them now. But at the same time I don’t know who they are, why I can see them, or what the point of seeing them is. I can hear them and physically feel them. They awaken the energy at the core of my being to insanely high levels, in ways I have not seen others talk about in the spiritual community. I’ve been feeling a literal transformation. Multiple physical ailments and imbalances have been healed. I’ve found an intense calm and clarity.

Because of how things have progressed, I know it’s for my highest good. I know I can trust it and lean into it. That doesn’t mean it’s easy. I have no guidebook. I have no mentor or guru to lead the way. I am my own guide. I’ve been told over and over that I need to carve my own path and to not follow anyone else’s footsteps. The loneliness in that can be devastating.

As I’ve said before, my husband is a total skeptic. He grounds me and helps keep track of the Earthly concerns of our life, but he can’t be there for me in this. I am totally on my own with things most people would not even believe and even the most open-minded would not relate to. I don’t have the bandwidth to care about that. I’m not trying to convince anyone and I’ve given up on looking for compassion or empathy from my Earthly companions. And that’s been okay because I am supported from beyond by beings that prove existence is exponentially broader than any of us can imagine.

Just sitting here writing this, I feel the energy of my soul surging within my physical body. I know if I close my eyes I’ll see the pulsing light of otherworldly beings around me. If I meditate, I’ll go into a trance. When I lay down at night, I have visions and see my energetic companions in greater detail. I even see myself interacting with them on other dimensions while simultaneously continuing to exist here in the physical realm. I have SO MANY questions, and no answers. Only trust, truth, faith, and willingness to go on this journey.

Where the Path Leads Us

We don’t get to see what lies ahead. We can only make ourselves ready to face it. And honestly, with so much chaos, instability, and pain in the world around us right now, it’s easier to be ready for something new. When you’re down, the only way to go is up. So wherever you find yourself, if you can align your truths and get ready to face your fears, anything is possible.

I have been shown many visions of what’s happening and what is coming. There is a common theme. There will be transformation, and ascension. There will be a rising up. I don’t know if it’s a metaphorical, symbolic, or even a literal rising up. But there is a plan. There is intention behind all of this. The design is so grand we can’t hope to even glimpse it. We can only play our small part to the best of our ability.

My part is to be self-sufficient. To trust myself primarily in all things, and realize my strength has more depth than I could have thought possible. Something is quite literally happening to me and my body. I am and we are not alone. And y’all, I want to push past this part of history. I want what comes next. I’m willing to endure the burning down before the phoenix rises. It’s much easier to endure impossible things when you know it’s out of your hands and that floating peacefully along in the currents is the swiftest way forward.

The more I surrender to this, the better it gets and the better I feel. In fact, the more I let go, the more everyone else seems to be actually insane to be fighting their lessons so much. I see people all around me driving themselves crazy, tying themselves in knots, and inviting excruciating consequences out of pure cowardice and laziness. I can’t make them behave differently, but I can learn from what I see. I can let go of my own fear and face the scariest parts head-on. I can refrain from complaining and procrastinating. I can work FOR my own happiness instead of fighting against it.

This is my path. This is my purpose. It’s awesome to know that for a fact. It’s wonderful to see the support being given to me from places beyond my understanding. I am thankful and curious and thrilled to know that magic is real and the world is cooler than we thought.

And if I died tomorrow, I would have no regrets at all. I would be certain I’ve done the best I could with what I’ve been given. Can’t ask for more than that.

I want the best for all of you. Don’t let your fear get in the way of your magical happy ending. Fight for instead of against yourself.

Love and blessings, friends.

June 24, 2021June 24, 2021

UAPs & incorporating ETs into your understanding of God

Hopefully after living through this latest global pandemic we can all agree that humans are not very smart. We wildly misunderstand the nature of our reality, even on the most basic levels, basing many of our concepts on the teachings of outdated religions that were created to subjugate the populace and control them through fear. And if our ideas aren’t based on religion, they tend to either be based purely on “old fashioned” science or flesh-worshipping concepts like atheism (what you see is all there is and that’s it).

Here’s what mainstream media and most of society thinks is going on with us and the “aliens”: We are biological creatures that are born, live, then die. When we die we cease to exist. “Aliens” or ETs are also biological creatures that live on far-away planets who are born, live, then die and cease to exist. When the UFOs/UAPs visit us, it’s the ETs climbing into ships with better engines than our engines. They fly the ships across space and stop by our planet, likely to a) steal our resources, b) “conquer” us, or c) who knows but it can’t be good!

Sound familiar?

Does it sound closed-minded and idiotic to you? If not, hopefully by the end of this post, it will.

Look, I’m not here pretending to understand the nature of reality in terms us puny humans can process. The first step to expanding awareness is to accept that we know nothing. It’s only when we can at least acknowledge that much that we can start to explore possibilities and open our minds to new, more expansive concepts.

I’m going to share some more expansive concepts with you. I’m not insisting they’re correct, but ask only to consider the possibilities inherent in them as a way to broaden your perspective and begin your own search for answers.

The first step, as the title of this post suggests, is to incorporate extraterrestrials into our understanding of God. We do this by considering the idea that we are NOT solely biological creatures, but eternal spiritual beings temporarily incarnating in human form.

Why do we do this? To learn? Because we were bored? Who knows! But if you can accept that much, then you can begin to see the temporary nature of human lives as just a small piece of the larger picture in which we play a part.

Let’s say Earth is a 3-dimensional planet (it might not be anymore but that’s another story for another post), home of duality and free will. When we incarnate here, we forget the eternal nature of our souls and live within the veil of amnesia. This is so our puny human brains don’t get overwhelmed or distracted by our past lives and existence in the etherial plane. We just focus on what our 5 senses tell us about who we are and where we are.

With me so far?

Now, let’s consider that those of us incarnating on Earth aren’t all FROM Earth. That Earth is a destination we can decide to visit via a human life before returning from whence we came. Some of us are purely Earth-based souls (we come here over and over and ONLY come here. We don’t incarnate elsewhere). Some of us have had some Earth-based human lives, but have also been other places. Others of us have NEVER been to Earth before and have only existed in other realms. Souls who are not from Earth have been referred to as starseeds.

Starseeds can be a wide variety of beings: extra-dimensional beings, beings from other planets, divine beings who came directly from Source, beings of pure consciousness, or beings who have evolved past the need for a physical form. Anyone could be a starseed. YOU could be a starseed. They also experience amnesia when incarnating and forget who they are, but they do experience things like a profound longing for a “home” they can never find, deep-seated disgust with the way people treat each other and their environment, and persistent inability to find others with whom they connect on deeper levels.

Why do starseeds come to Earth?

To understand this, we must look at the nature of life on Earth, especially from a wider view that takes in the scope of human history. Earth is not an easy place to live. It’s full of suffering, loneliness, confusion, and also love. There is so much negativity here that we get easily overwhelmed. Because of free will, we are able to make terrible choices and nothing stops us from doing this. Humans are divisive and hateful toward each other. The world has been plagued by a greedy, rampaging patriarchy, wealth inequality, racism, slavery, etc. Basically, it’s very hard to break free of the traps we set for ourselves in order to live happy, peaceful, fulfilling lives that are relatively free of pain.

Starseeds come to try and change that. They come to spread light and love. The very nature of their otherworldly souls brings enhanced energy, capability, and knowledge beyond what Earth-based beings experience. While living human lives, they channel higher, benevolent forces who are desperately trying to keep us from destroying ourselves and this beautiful planet we live on. We think Earth is “ours” but it’s not – we just live here. And we’re doing a terrible job at not only keeping ourselves alive, but also at keeping our planet alive. We need all the help we can get.

Why doesn’t “God” save us?

Despite what religion and popular culture have told us, God is not an old white guy living up in the clouds. God is the source of all existence. It’s consciousness. Energy. Not a single, limited being similar to human beings. We are gravely mistaken when we try to personify God as having human weaknesses and traits. Everything that IS comes from God – is a part of God. We are all collectively, along with the rest of the entire universe, “God”.

The true nature of existence is Oneness. It is only our temporary amnesia in being incarnated on a dense 3D planet that prohibits us from understanding the ultimate goal of existence is to return to Oneness. Because Earth is a free will planet, we have the free will to experience fear, pain, suffering, and to kill physical bodies (Note: we are always eternal, so we cannot actually die).

Divine beings don’t save us because that would violate free will. But, like I said, the planet itself is not “ours”. It’s a being in its own right and we are not being permitted to kill it. ETs know if that happened it would have massively horrific repercussions rippling outward throughout many other realms than this one. That’s why they have done things like shutting off nuclear weapons, but have not, for example, eradicated the coronavirus or warfare of any sort for us.

UAPs happen, and we see UFOs, because they’re keeping an eye on us. They’re here to prevent us from blowing up the planet. They don’t stop us from killing ourselves or each other because very much like on Star Trek with their Prime Directive, there is a non-interference rule with lesser evolved, denser planets like ours. They are not ALLOWED to interfere.

There are, however, loopholes, such as the existence of starseeds. ETs can voluntarily incarnate here in massive numbers to try and bring light and positivity with them to tip the scales on all the darkness and negativity. It’s said that MILLIONS of starseeds are currently incarnated on Earth. This is because it’s is a profoundly critical moment in human history. It’s do or die. We either shift things toward the positive, or we will quickly find ourselves on an uninhabitable planet.

Because the goal of existence is to grow awareness and ascend back to unity consciousness, souls come to Earth to do this (Earth is one of the most difficult places to incarnate – in the sense that it’s both torturous to exist here and there is quite a massive waiting list to be granted access to a much-sought-after Earth life). The difficult nature of life on Earth means we can grow and evolve our consciousness much more quickly here. The problem is that many, many souls who incarnate on Earth are NOT evolving. They’re stuck in negative, repeating karmic patterns. It’s gotten so bad that the only choice is to recruit outside help from starseeds, or give up on the human experiment entirely. Starseeds and ETs want to help save us. They want to get us unstuck from the traps we’ve set for ourselves and have proven unable to get out of on our own.

What about the ships in the sky? The UFOs?

Many of the ETs on these ships are beings who have family who are currently incarnated on Earth. They are here to be near them and make sure they are okay, because they love them too much to abandon them on a hellscape planet like this one. So, they hide themselves away on other dimensions where they are close but not visible to us, showing up once in a while to hint at the true nature of things and to show us we’re not alone.

This is why it’s so funny that the popular narrative is that the “aliens” are here to “get us” and have some malevolent agenda. WE ARE THE ONES WITH THE MALEVOLENT AGENDA. Humans are the monsters. We are the ones trapped in this realm of negativity, fear, and pain. We can’t build bigger guns to blast the ETs out of the sky and therefore “win”, because it’s way, way bigger than that. You can’t fight beings that are incarnating on your planet through the same channels Earth-based souls do. This is about the nature of existence. It’s about divine beings trying to shift the course of reality on this planet for the highest good of all so that billions of souls can finally have some peace and salvation from suffering. The only ones who actually want to destroy the ETs are the darkest, lowest humans who have done a thorough job at subjugating the people of this world for their own greed and maliciousness. They are the only bad guys here.

And guess what? The ETs are trying to save them too.

Love and blessings, friends.

May 18, 2021May 18, 2021

The Fallacy of ‘Dragged Kicking and Screaming into Doing What is Right and Good’

When I was a teenager, one evening I sobbed uncontrollably in my bedroom while my stone-faced mother watched from a few feet away. At the time, I was being relentlessly bullied at school, I had no friends, and my family was abusive. There was no source of kindness in my life. I was alone, so I cried and begged my mother to give me a hug, a word of comfort—anything. She blinked at me like I was a curious splotch on a sidewalk and said no, that it wasn’t “who she was”.

When I was thirty-seven, I walked on a beach with my only surviving sibling (P), months after our younger brother (M) died suddenly from a brain bleed following a fall. During this walk, P explained how he knew exactly why M died and what M’s mindset was about his short life prior to dying. P didn’t believe in grieving, or life after death, or God. In his mind, everything was cut and dried and it was time to move on since M was dead and P wasn’t.

Over the past year or so, we have all watched family, friends, and neighbors absolutely refuse to do something as painless and inexpensive as wearing a face mask for the greater good to halt a rampaging global pandemic. We have listened to the same people refuse to get vaccinated for the same reasons my mother wouldn’t hug me and my brother wouldn’t grieve M—they’ve decided they know better, and no one can tell them otherwise.

This group of people who think this way will only alter these resolutions they’ve made for themselves if dragged kicking and screaming away from them, and into doing what the rest of us deems right and good. The funny thing is part of them does actually want us to try and do it. To force them into complying. They’d revel in the chance to play the victim and the martyr. This is because they’re fully driven by their ego. Anything that threatens their ego (which is their true God) is the enemy and deserving of attack.

There’s a very weird catch-22 surrounding this situation.

They won’t change unless we force them.

They want us to try and force them.

And yet…

When it comes to doing what is right and good, it’s almost never the case where anyone is ever dragged kicking and screaming into doing it. It just doesn’t happen. That’s not how any of this works.

No one is going to force an uncaring mother to hug her daughter. No one is going to force someone to feel grief for their lost loved ones. No one is going to force an anti-vaxxer to get vaccinated or to wear a mask. Sure, there may be consequences like being kicked out of a store for not complying, but no one is going to tackle them to the ground and strap a piece of cloth on their face against their will. Would they like someone to try? You bet! Imagine the glorious tantrum that would follow!

Beyond these examples, there is much to be found in existence and this plane of reality in which we find ourselves that is Other. Things that have nothing to do with us or our egos. These things require a leap of faith, a spark of curiosity, a willingness to step beyond the realm of what we consider safe and familiar. What kinds of things am I referring to? God, faith, spirit, ghosts, aliens, parallel dimensions, higher dimensions, fate, consciousness, and all the mysteries of the cosmos.

The ego-driven do not buy into those sorts of things. They laugh at them and mock them as being children’s stories for the idiotic and overly-sensitive.

This is where that catch-22 kicks in.

Liberals will not descend from helicopters and shoot vaccine darts into your helpless family against their will. God will never drag you kicking and screaming into belief. No one will tackle you to the ground and force acceptance upon you that you have an eternal soul and will face judgment when you die. Real life is not a movie where the extraterrestrials cross space and time in order to make a childish, violent, explosive entrance to display their dominance and girthy weapons, only for an “ordinary white man” to swoop in, defeating them against all odds and saving all of mankind from enslavement to the terrible creatures.

For those of us stuck with the maturity of a toddler, there is no cosmic “Mommy” waiting to swat our hand away from the hot stove of consequences to save us. If we reach for fire, we will get burned.

We are ignorant beings. We don’t know everything. In fact, we know almost NOTHING. It’s only when we accept this fact that we begin to have even a glimmer of understanding.

We aren’t the best, the most holy, the smartest, the cleverest, or the most deserving. Humans are flawed and severely limited in their capacity for understanding due to our perception typically being limited by our five senses. We trick ourselves into believing what we see and touch is all there could possibly be. We point and laugh at anyone who suggests otherwise. The whispering of Ego tells us it is the only true God. It warns that we must obsess and slave over the “perfection” of our physical body, possessions, and house while we can, because before we know it we will wither and die, becoming totally extinguished from existence.

There is no way to explain to someone their Ego is wrong. The only way to conquer Ego is from within. They have to do it for themselves.

No one is going to drag anyone kicking and screaming into belief in something more expansive than their own Ego. The only way to become a better person—to grow, change, and evolve—is to choose to become one.

That’s the test. That’s the only way forward. We can only approach higher things by choosing to approach them. Free will means we are each free to be an ego-driven fool for as long as we like. It means no one will take that away from you if you don’t want to let them.

And there lies the tragedy, friends.

This is where the heart breaks.

Because there is no saving them. There is no convincing them. There is no forcing them.

They can only save themselves.

And for the most part, they won’t. They are simply much too afraid to even think of doing so.

We’re in a crucial moment of human development on a scale larger than any of us can imagine. The Age of Aquarius is here, folks. There is no more stalling. It’s do or die. We either evolve, or we perish. If we don’t evolve, the planet quickly becomes uninhabitable for humans. If we don’t choose to do better, we devolve into authoritarianism.

We are supported by the higher realms. They are doing all they can, but we must always remember… they will not drag us kicking and screaming into our own salvation! If we don’t choose to save ourselves, they will allow us the freedom to devote ourselves to a hellish existence full of suffering and mass death.

I’m not here to say what you should believe in. There is no one God out there waiting with arms spread who will save you the way the Christians claim Jesus will save you—forgiving all reckless cruelty as long as you say you’re sorry before heading off to do it again. The same is true for each and every one of us:

We are our only salvation.

No one can save us but ourselves.

No one can choose to do better for us. It won’t happen unless we make the choice to learn and change, and then do the hard work of actually learning and changing.

There is no trick to this, friends.

You need to save yourself. You need to admit when you were wrong and seek out the information as to why. You have to choose to devote yourself to being a good person, and then do the hard work of figuring out what that means.

We can escape disaster. We can evolve and transform our world into paradise. We can eradicate suffering and devote our existence to peaceful creativity. Anything is possible, but it is our choice.

I have a heart full of compassion for those who are enslaved by their egos. It’s a terrible, painful existence where fear blankets absolutely everything, and where the only certainty is that total obliteration is inevitable.

The only way out of this place is the only way most of us refuse to go.

This is my plea, sent out to the world and everyone in it, to please toss your ego out of the way and see everything it’s been hiding from you. Growth is always possible, for everyone. Individually, we will not budge from where we are until we choose to move, but please believe me when I say this world is moving on whether humans choose to go with it or not. It can and will leave behind anyone who doesn’t want to go on the journey. For those who are choosing to stay—stone-faced, arms folded, jaw clenched, and nose in the air—they will eventually go too. It may take lifetimes. It may take eons worth of agony, or it may take mere moments. But someday, somehow, we will all get there. For the universe is patient and time has no meaning.

The choice is ours, and only ours.

Love and blessings, friends.

April 25, 2021April 25, 2021

Seer Diaries: Sensing the Shift

Our entire world is undergoing a massive vibrational shift in energy right now. You can see scientific evidence of this shift by observing the Schumann Resonance. This is a core, extremely low frequency (ELF) level that surrounds the planet.

Since the discovery of the baseline frequency of 7.83 Hz in 1954, it was considered a stable measurable frequency that has been called the earth’s “heart-beat”.

But in 2014, suddenly the baseline frequency started increasing and went up to spikes at 15 to 25 Hz levels. Since then, these spikes have gone even higher. This may affect our bodies and minds. It may also just be a reflection or side effect of what is going on at a grand scale.

What is the Shift?

The frequency of our energy—the planet and those living on it—will continue to rise until we level out again in a higher dimension. Spiritually, this is referred to as the Ascension. With it comes a much higher level of connectedness to Source, each other, and our world. It will create a total overhaul of our society and way of living. It will begin to open us up to higher dimensions that already exist, and the beings existing there. This means we all will begin to have access to psychic gifts that are already within us, waiting to be unlocked.

The Evidence

Beyond just the Schumann Resonance, you can see evidence of the shift everywhere in the news and the changes in our lives since the arrival of COVID-19. Old, outdated, corrupted systems are breaking down so we can replace them with new, better, more enlightened approaches to taking care of ourselves and the planet we live upon. This extends from our approach to facing the pandemic, to the outraged, racist, patriarchal, white supremacy, misogyny, homophobia and transphobia rampant in America police, politics, and law. You can see it in the ways Gaia is shaking up our weather and the surface of the planet (this reaction is her way of treating the virulent plague of humanity actively trying to kill her). You can see it in our growing, appropriate outrage to insane wealth inequality. It is all around us.

What Will Happen?

No one quite knows what things will be like after to Shift, how long it will last, or when the climax will arrive. The more extreme theorists predict mass deaths of human beings as part of the ongoing sixth mass extinction, proposing that this will rid the planet of those unwilling or unable to tolerate the elevated energy levels. Others explain that those who refuse to participate in the shift will be left behind in other ways, such as they will simply stop being able to see those who have shifted. They will see them no more than they see the spirits that have always been in their midst. Your guess as to what will actually happen is as good as mine!

My Personal Experience of the Shift, So Far

There is obviously a lot of guesswork here. Our planet has NEVER experienced a shift like this in all of its long existence. Even those on the other side on higher planes of reality have no idea what to expect. What I can tell you is that I can sense the shift happening in very specific ways.

My perception through my third eye has been changing. I’m seeing an even broader range of beings than before, as more types of spirits make contact with me. The latest arrival is nature spirits (who are absolutely wonderful).

I have been interacting with some of the same beings on a regular, nightly basis. These beings (intentionally) cloud my sight when I try to perceive them more clearly, but I can hear the energy changes happening when they are there in ways I couldn’t before. I can also FEEL the energy changing in very dramatic, tangible ways.

Now, when I am “tuned in” at night, during meditation, or even just in introspective moments during my day (like right now), I am much more physically aware of my etheric body than my flesh-and-bone body. The energy of my spirit moving my physical body and existing in this plane of reality has been super-charged. It feels bubbly, fizzy, or like I’ve been connected to a powerful battery. I feel it in my skin, my muscles, my bones, my tongue and teeth.

My belief is this is all my experience of elevating vibration levels. Higher levels = more energy = more sensory experiences of that energy.

Meditation has been changing for me as well. Just this past week, when I meditate I seem to enter a trance state similar to hypnosis. I am aware the whole time but not fully conscious. My mind clears of all thought. I witness visual phenomena and lights through my third eye. My body becomes heavier, even as I remain aware of my breathing and the furniture beneath me. I have brief spans of missing time as I go in and out. When I finish the meditation—which feels blissful and serene—there is a distinct “whoosh” as if my spirit is settling back into my body. My best guess is I’m doing some astral travel. These are very new experiences I’ve never had before.

Changes to Expect

As we progress with the shift, we will be changing how we interact with the world. Toxic people and circumstances will become utterly intolerable. Removing them from our lives will clear the path forward to better things.

We will stop eating and drinking things of a dense, low vibration. This means meat (specifically things like beef and pork), alcohol, overly processed foods with preservatives, sugar, and maybe even dairy. Eating lots of fruits and “live” uncooked vegetables, as well as drinking a ton of water, will be crucial. I’m told we will eventually get to a point where we will be on a totally liquid diet.

There is a lot to be thankful for in this shift, even as it may seem overwhelming. Especially in American society, our “work to live” approach—sacrificing our bodies, time, and energy to make just enough money to survive or afford possessions we don’t need—has been an actual manifestation of Hell. We will be free of it! Our basic needs will be taken care of so we can spend our time doing work that makes us feel alive.

If those of you reading this want to discover more about how this shift is going or how it impacts you, all you need to do is go within. Your soul has access to all of the knowledge you’re looking for. What do you feel? What does your heart tell you? What does instinct tell you to focus on or let go of? That’s where to start.

We’re in for a wild ride! This is why we are here, on this planet, at this time. We came here now so we could experience this for ourselves. It will radically change everything we are, and everything we know. Change is hard for us. Fear warns us to hold on tighter to that which no longer serves us since it is so familiar, but I promise you will be left so much lighter if you have faith and go with the flow. The energy currents will get us where we need to be.

Love and blessings, friends.

March 26, 2021March 26, 2021

Seer Diaries: How Do I Explain This So You’ll Believe Me

Okay, real talk: I’ve been avoiding writing this post, because I don’t know how to say this so that you’ll believe me. I’ve only told my husband, and I’m pretty sure he doesn’t believe it either. The more time that passes, the less I understand and the more questions I have.

I don’t know what is happening to me, or why. Sometimes I practice explaining it while going on a long walk alone to clear my head, but I always get to a certain point where I hear myself and can’t fathom thinking this is anything but a weird exercise in writing fiction. But I swear to anyone reading this, this is actually happening. It’s overwhelming to such a degree that I fully believe the stories of people having a psychotic break after their third eye opens.

I saw a story on a message board online of someone who knew someone whose third eye opened, and the guy flew to INDIA and tracked down a guru to beg him to shut it down for him. That’s the only case I’ve seen where anyone had managed to close this door once it’s been opened. So I’m quite serious when I say that once this door is opened, it’s disintegrated. There is no “shutting the door” again, because there is no more door. There is only the new normal.

My Credentials

I’m a normal person. I have no history of mental illness. I was raised as a Catholic in white, middle-class, suburban America. I don’t do drugs or drink alcohol. I don’t even eat meat or drink anything caffeinated.

I’ve been married for 20 years. I have two amazing teenage kids who are straight-A students and have never gotten in serious trouble in their lives. I’ve worked at the same design studio for twenty-one years and am their most valued, relied on employee, by far. I’ve had over twenty stories published, including fifteen novels. I’m a very quiet, reversed person who likes to do crafts and puzzles.

My focus in my spare time has increasingly been on my spiritual growth. This started because I was raised by very flawed, abusive people and desperately wanted to be a better person than them, somehow. It then progressed from there once I realized the spiritual path of healing oneself and understanding existence is the truest path most worthy of our time and energy. It’s the only way to dramatically improve life, to contribute the most effectively to improving the world, and fulfill the core reasons why we were ever born in the first place.

What Happens at Night: Some Basics

Since my third eye opened, every single night—without a single pause or night off—for many months now, the same thing happens. It starts between 1 a.m. and 4 a.m. Once it starts, it does not stop until I get out of bed to start my day that morning. It does not stop if I get out of bed to use the bathroom or get some water. It sounds ridiculous, but the spirits who are always around me (who I’ve taken to calling my co-pilots), know when my alarm goes off. That’s when they shut things down, and not a second sooner.

Everything I see at night is with a deep bluish-purple light, and black shadow. I can see these things with my eyes open or shut, but I see the clearest when it’s darkest, with my eyes shut, so I keep an eye mask next to my bed to help me focus sometimes.

When my third eye is completely open and activated, I can see the room I’m in and everything in it with my eyes shut. I can even still see them with the eye mask on and a pillow covering my eyes. If I raise my hand (with eyes shut, eye mask on, AND pillow over my face), I can see my fingers wiggling. I’ve watched my husband get up out of bed and walk around it to stand by his dresser while my eyes are shut, and I’m wearing an eye mask. I’ve seen explanations that this is possible because I’m seeing with my spirit and not my physical eyes, which seems to be accurate.

Note: When this is happening, and I don’t have my eyes covered in some way, just my eyelids closed, I have seen entities standing in the room with me, leaning over the bed and watching me. This was not at all pleasant or fun, as you can possibly imagine. I could ONLY see the entities when my eyes were closed. Yet another reason why I keep the eye mask handy—it helps to block those guys out. All of the other entities I see are NOT in the room with me. I only see them because I’m seeing through The Veil with my third eye.

The Layers

When things get started between 1 a.m. and 4 a.m., it happens after I wake from sleep. Only once have I been lying awake with insomnia and “seen” it start on its own. I don’t do anything to start it—it’s on autopilot. I’ll surface from a dream to be confronted directly with all of this going on.

Everything I see is on several layers, happening all at the same time. Think of multiple transparent pages placed on top of one another, each with different imagery. I can focus on different layers to bring them into sharper focus.

One layer I can see 24/7. It looks like a swirling mass of billions of stars, which is why I’ve started calling it “the galaxy”. It’s always moving and changing direction, swiveling and shifting. I can change its direction or pause it completely with only my intention and focus. I believe this to be The Veil between dimensions. When entities are coming through, the eye of galaxy is faced directly towards me with an opening in the center.

Another layer is made up of tiny, intricate symbol patterns made of light. Sometimes the symbols move in a repetitious, constant motion. Like with the galaxy, I can control this layer with my intention by focusing. If I want to zoom in on it, or shrink the symbols, I can.

These are the only layers I can control at all (from what I’ve experienced so far).

At the “back” is pure darkness, which feels alive and moving. Sometimes it seems to be folding in on itself, or twisting, or just moving in a lot of intricate, complex ways.

Behind the symbol layer is where I see entities appear. They are stubborn and tend to only leave when I fall asleep again. Sometimes they stay all night long. I’m not going to try to explain them in this post, but 98% of them are non-human, and I don’t mean that they’re animals. Most human entities I see are negative ones (so I do actually prefer the non-human guys). With any of the entities, sometimes I just see a couple of features of their face, or only their eyes.

A lot of times, the entities will send me visions to “introduce themselves”. These take over my entire field of vision and play like little movie clips. They’ll play through clearly once, and then repeat, but the repeats will be twisted and blurred. Most of the humans I see are the ones featured in visions which I’m assuming are like messages or stories. Sometimes the visions have other colors, which is always exciting.

After the vision plays, sometimes I’ll see another layer I refer to as the Watchers. These look like shadow figures. I see them only as silhouettes that move and interact with each other.

No Control

I don’t have any sort of control over any of that, really. I have literally tried everything. I can interrupt the visions by opening my eyes for a few seconds. I do this a lot if I’m unsure whether the vision is from a negative being. It is really hard to tell the intention of these entities because I’m only using my sense of sight here. There is no sound, or any energetic signature of “nice” or “angry”.

Some look obviously negative. They have “horror faces”, which is basically like if you asked a four-year-old to draw a scary face. The negative humans will usually be making screaming faces. A lot of the others try to look harmless, but then will try to harm me by draining my energy later, which does cause physical pain.

Asking for Help

At first, I hated to ask for help. I read that you could ask the angels, and specifically Archangel Michael, for help with removing negative spirits. (Disclaimer, I KNOW how crazy this sounds, trust me!) It worked every single time. I would literally see angels appear (glowing, wings, flowing robes, etc.—exactly how you’d expect them to look) and remove the negative spirit. The angels would then stay with me for the rest of the morning, for hours, until I got out of bed. They appeared in white or blue light, flying past in the darkness, or looking down from clouds where The Veil has parted.

That’s when I started to feel like I was inconveniencing actual celestial beings. I’d have massive amounts of guilt afterward, so for a few weeks I tried to just suffer through the negative entities.

Now I have a new tactic. I ask for the help of my guides and any nearby angels as part of my prayers before bed. I am very, very thankful for them. I ask them to shield me from any negative entity so I can rest.

And they do! They do it without me having to figure out who is bad and who is benevolent. I have learned that if there is an angelic presence protecting me, I’ll see it as a blue, soft light at the edges of my vision, and the entity in question will be pushed way back into the darkness. I can see it there, but it can’t hurt me.

Strangely, the angels tend to leave around dawn, so then my guides will take over and physically put themselves between me and the entity in question.

Their help has quite literally saved my sanity. I am so deeply thankful for their protection. I can sleep now without panicking about what is going to be lurking in the darkness. When I say I tried everything else, I tried EVERYTHING else that anyone at all in the spiritual community suggests to clear negative energy from a space. The negative guys do not listen to me. They don’t care about shielding or sage or crystals. They don’t behave like ghosts because they’re not “here” in my bedroom, they’re on another plane of existence that I can only see because of my third eye.

In Conclusion

It’s been a lot, guys. I started to have a deep, existential dread at the end of every day about what I was going to endure that night. But this has been going on so long now, I have acclimated. I know at the very least that I can handle it. I know I can rely on help being there in some form if I need it.

I have seen so many things. Things you truthfully would not believe. I have woken up to being surrounded by THOUSANDS of beings, standing shoulder to shoulder and watching, waiting for… something. I started this blog to discus concepts and theories. I don’t have any idea what this all is, though, or why it’s happening, especially why it’s happening to me of all people. I have no concepts, and… my theories? I’m not quite ready to share them yet.

What do I know? This is all happening with a lot of intention. My daily meditation sessions have gotten very psychedelic. I’ve become just as aware of my energy body as my physical body. This is all way bigger than me, but effects absolutely everyone. We are all way more protected than we think we are—we have to ASK for the protection! Because of the existence of free will, we NEED TO ASK. They can’t help us otherwise. I find a lot of comfort now, in this powerful evidence of OTHER, because y’all? Humans suck.

For the curious, check out the work of Dolores Cannon and her book on the Three Waves of Volunteers. Google things like: the New Earth, starseeds, the shift, and the Law of One (the Wanderers, the harvest).

So, yeah. Good news, angels are real?

Love and blessings, friends.

February 20, 2021February 20, 2021

Seer Diaries: The State of the World—Fork in the Road

There are a number of topics I plan to write about on this blog that have to do with my third eye opening. These include seeing the veil between our world and the next; my experiences with negative entities; how to protect yourself from negative entities; my experiences with benevolent and divine entities; and more. Before I get to them, though, I need to set a few things straight about what I see happening in our world, and why. These are things that the larger spiritual community (parts that haven’t been infested with Q-anon—an agent of the Dark that directly targets those it sees working hard for Light) is in whole-hearted agreement on.

My expanding awareness over the past year, as well as my direct encounters with both benevolent and negative spirits has helped form my understanding of what’s happening right now. Many people are searching for answers or an explanation of why so many aspects of our society are failing at the same time.

The convenient excuse for the lower-vibration groups is that it’s all the fault of those who are upsetting the normal order in the name of what are considered foolish attempts to save the lives of others, or to question extreme abuses of authority, or blatant racism, sexism, homophobia and transphobia. This old order likes things just as they have been for thousands of years, where the rich, old, white men have all of the power over everyone else, and act entirely out of their own selfish interests at the expense of absolutely everything, including the survival of our planet.

The painful truth is there are a lot of people in this world who are most comfortable when someone in authority is telling them exactly what to do, think, and feel. They enjoy knowing exactly who they should hate and criticize, who to blame each of their problems on, and how exactly to putter mindlessly through their days with no free will or independent thought.

The old order has been in power for far too long, but is finally crumbling. It feeds glutinously off of these sheep-like people who serve their goals. Their sheep never question orders, sometimes not even when their own life is at stake. They’re happily used, abused, and fed to the machine. The sheep are kept small and controllable through heavy-handed use of fear and hate. Divisiveness forbids awakening to truth. It maintains a chaotic populous that’s too afraid to look past the surface of things and band together to overthrow the tyrants causing all of the pain.

But people are awakening. The vibration of the planet and its occupants is rising. We’re overcoming duality and evolving into a place and a people who choose love over fear, and who come together to solve problems rather than hiding and pointing fingers.

This transformation is happening because of the good people in this world, because of the divine energies washing over our planet, and through the assistance of countless benevolent entities.

We’re at a crucial point in the history of the world. There is a fork in the road before us. There are only two ways this can play out. Either we will fail to rise above and lift this plane of existence to a higher level, or we will succeed. If we fail, the old order wins. The earth will become uninhabitable for humans very swiftly, and the game will be over. Any kind of survival that happens will be defined by immense suffering. The authoritarians will have ceased control over the rest, and the effects of this catastrophe will ripple outwards through the universe.

If we succeed, we will save our planet and ourselves. Our society will finally be released from the clutches of the patriarchy, from subservience, from wealth inequality, from the rat race, and from enslavement. Life will be about thriving, creative expression, community, and kindness. The possibilities are limitless.

There are those who are in touch with the other side, who insist this war has already been won by the Light, and we’re just seeing the effects of the battle rippling outward before things settle into place. I believe this is true, but I also believe those who shun the Light will be granted the freedom to exist in Darkness.

We are all of us entirely surrounded by beings who are actively engaged in this struggle between Light and Dark, love and fear, positive and negative. The Light beings are fighting for us to live our highest good. They’re ready and waiting to help, always. The Dark beings are also fighting, but to keep us plugged into its matrix of pain as food.

Before I write my upcoming post about my encounters with negative entities, it’s important for me to convey what their goal is.

We are each born into this world with Light, as sparks of the divine. Our souls are small fractal aspects of God/Source/Creation, or whatever name you prefer to call it. We are unimaginably powerful, immortal, invincible beings of love. We incarnate on Earth because it’s one of the most challenging experiences we can possibly undertake (and things get boring when you exist forever). The density of this world is well beyond the vast majority of the universe. If you think of incarnation as school, and our lives as our lessons, then Earth is one of the most grueling schools out there. It’s near impossible to get the chance to come here, so we’re very blessed to have the opportunities for growth that we do. We can evolve here in leaps and jumps.

But many beautiful souls sign up to a life on Earth only to be overwhelmed by pain and suffering. The negativity here is everywhere and drags down anyone who doesn’t fight hard enough to escape it. This negativity has consciousness. It seeks to feed off of our Light in order to trap us here. We’re like singular sparks of brightness in expansive, pitch darkness, drawing all manner of creatures of the Dark directly to us.

They don’t want us to banish them and save this world from their ruin. They capture us through our egos, and through suffering. But like all vampires, they need to be invited in. We can expel them. We can take back control over our experience, our soul, and our world. In a future post, I will list specific examples on how exactly to do that.

Friends, we’re right at that fork in the road. In fact, some of us have already chosen the path of Light and have stepped onto it. Because we’re still close to the fork, we can see those who are headed down the path of the Dark. They’re still right beside us, but they won’t be for long. There is still time to reach them, to call them back and encourage them to choose the Light for their own sakes, if not for any other reason. Unfortunately, there is no way to force anyone to express their free will in a way they choose not to. We can’t make anyone do anything they don’t want to do. And many, many souls are just fine with enslavement and suffering if it means they don’t need to work very hard at anything.

You will begin to see the effects of this splitting of paths in the people in your lives. Some will have a very easy time of things while others face unimaginable obstacles, challenges, and pain. One person will have their days filled with joy and relative peace, despite what’s going on in the wider world, while their neighbor is in absolute misery. Both timelines will exist side-by-side for a while, until they diverge completely.

Many who are leaving this plane through death now are doing so to continue the fight for good from the other side, where they can thrive and have a greater impact.

Those who are ascending and choosing to evolve their spirit for the highest good will fall into the flow of things. They will be carried to a higher level and given the chance to make an impact through a life that is more peaceful, enriching, and full of possibilities. No matter what happens on Earth, they will be lifted out of suffering because that is what they have chosen.

Those who have sunken deep into pits of fear and selfishness, who refuse to grow or escape their self-made prisons, will get to stay there. The universe is very accommodating. If a soul wants to stay in misery, the universe makes it happen. If Earth doesn’t survive, these souls will be relocated to another, similar place until they finally choose to ascend as well, even if it takes them literal eons to do so.

To be perfectly honest, I’ve been shocked and appalled lately by the fear-driven and ego-driven behaviors of my family and friends. The further we progress through this fork in the road, the more clearly I see people declaring their alignment with Dark or Light. Most people I see are choosing Dark. I believe that is why I am where I am, so I can do my best to infuse Light into this place and these people. We need to each look inward and determine whether our actions are driven by service to self, or service to the good of all.

If you have chosen service to self, you are on the path of darkness. You have declared your fear is more important than the continued existence of everyone else. That you are willing to kill your neighbor or your brother if it means you don’t have to work quite as hard. That’s darkness.

If you’re too afraid of sacrificing your ability to party with friends in order to protect them from suffering and death, you are on the path of darkness. If you laugh at people in pain, saying they brought it on themselves and probably deserve it anyway, you are on the path of darkness.

If you are stuck in a toxic, abusive situation, and are too afraid to do anything about it, even in the privacy of your own heart, even if it means your loved ones suffer because of your weakness, you are on the path of darkness. My parents were monstrous, evil people and not one of my relatives or friends stood up for me to them. I send light and love to all of their souls because I see them on the path of darkness and know it’s totally unnecessary for them to be headed in that direction. But their existence is their own to navigate.

It’s do or die now. Things will keep getting worse for those who need the lesson. Things will get better for those who don’t. It’s as simple as that.

Be conscious of your choices, and what is driving you forward. Be careful of where you invest your energy. If anything in your world feels negative, stay far away from it. Protect your energy. Prayer and mediation work. Loving beings are listening and want to help you. No one but you is in control of what your experience will be. Nothing in this life happens TO us. We only become victims if we choose it. Everything that you experience is a lesson—even the nightmarish catastrophes, and things that seem “unfair”. If you look hard enough, you will see the opportunities for growth. If you decide to get through the pain and come out the other side, you will.

Negativity might already have its hooks in you. It might be the cruel voice inside your head that makes you feel bad. Know that voice is not you. It’s your ego and your painbody. You don’t have to listen to it. You can tell it exactly where to go and expel it from your energy. Again, vampires have to be invited in. Stop inviting them in!

Good luck out there, everyone. Love and blessings.

February 13, 2021February 13, 2021

Seer Diaries: Seeing Spirits (Childhood & Daytime)

I have not talked about the things I’m sharing here with anyone besides my husband. As far as I can remember, I never told anyone about these experiences, and still haven’t decided whether I’ll start talking about them in the future. For now, this blog is the sole place I’m sharing them. I’ve been surrounded by outspoken skeptics my whole life and it’s worn me down. At this point, I don’t care whether or not anyone else believes in these things, because they’re starkly real to me and quite a lot to handle psychologically all on your own.

One disclaimer before diving in. I distinguish between spirits and “ghosts”. My gift has manifested differently at various stages of my life, but I do not see ghosts (such as the transparent, full-color, full-bodied apparitions shown wandering hallways in TV shows and movies). I see energy, including conscious energy in the form of spirit. Infrequently, I have encountered the impression of specific deceased relatives and gotten a crystal-clear image of them in my mind (as well as information about why they were visiting), but my experiences don’t play out the way Hollywood portrays. I also want to point out that there’s a lot more out there with us besides formerly alive humans. A LOT more.

I’ve noticed these phenomenally bright spirits show up randomly during the day as I’m doing chores. Suddenly, when I blink I’ll see a blinding light at the edge of my vision. If I’m able to, I then find a darker space in which to close my eyes and check out what’s going on.

It can be frustrating to not know who these spirits are, why they’re visiting me, or why they hang around. I don’t even really understand where they are in space and time in relation to my physical body. They never “come out” from beyond the edges of things like my co-pilots do. At any given point in time there are usually a couple of them on both my left and right, several above me, and sometimes one below. They move around (some more than others). They come out in droves while I’m meditating.

Childhood Abilities

I could see spirits when I was young. Since I wasn’t exactly surrounded by supportive, nurturing loved ones, I kept it to myself and found ways to self-soothe when overwhelmed by this ability. The spirits showed up mostly at night and in the dark. I’d see shadow figures passing through my bedroom like it was Grand Central Station. And I’m not just talking about one or two, but a crowd of them. Too many to count. If I decided to “see the people”, it would switch on and they would be everywhere.

It was terrifying.

If I wondered if I would see a scary face, one would manifest right in front of me like I’d conjured it. Most of the people were all-black figures who walked through walls and the room like they couldn’t see it or didn’t know it was even there. They never interacted with me. The only ones who would look directly at me or acknowledge me at all were the negative, scary ones.

I hated it. My life was already hellish due to having abusive, neglectful parents with severe, untreated personality disorders. Seeing transparent people in my bedroom in the dead of night was the breaking point for me.

So I turned it off. I decided—conclusively—that I “didn’t want to see the people anymore”.

It worked. I stopped seeing them… for the most part. I had a couple other one-off experiences after that.

One of them was seeing a brightly glowing female in long, flowing blue robes with golden hair walk out of my parents’ bathroom, cross their bedroom, the hallway, and then enter my bedroom. Hyperventilating with terror, I yanked the bedsheet up over my head to hide. But I could still see her THROUGH the sheet as she sat on the edge of my bed, looking at me. As an overwhelmed, traumatized little kid, I can’t even explain my level of fear at that point. I blanked out. My memory of it shuts off once I remember her sitting down. Interestingly, she gave off loving energy. She smiled. She glowed like an angel. I’m pretty sure the fear stemmed from the fact that I could still see her through the sheet, proving it wasn’t just my mind playing tricks on me.

In retrospect, I believe she was a benevolent spirit checking up on me.

The older I got, the more I told myself it had all been in my mind and not real at all.

I was wrong.

Several Months Ago: The First Signs Something was Changing

During the pandemic, I’ve spent time meditating every single day. I’ve gone on daily ninety minute walks for months, doing chanting mantras to keep my mind clear and my awareness on the present moment rather than worries. In addition to this, I’ve been doing tons of inner work (journaling, shadow work, speaking to my spirit guides, etc.) in my plentiful free time. The clearer my mind became, the lighter I felt.

Soon, I noticed pressure on my forehead, right between and above my eyes where the third eye is located. This sensation began during the length of my meditations, or even just when I would zone out randomly during the day. It was intense and unmistakable, like someone’s fingertip resting firmly against the skin.

That was the first sign.

Then I began to see things during meditation, when my eyes were shut. It looked like a lava lamp effect of darkness and dim, blue light swirling gently around. It was hypnotic and pleasant to watch. I could follow the movement and it would help keep my mind clear of thoughts.

Next, the air came alive for me. Everywhere, all the time, I see movement in the air. It’s energy. It pulses, shimmers, flickers, and flows. It’s become impossible to tell if it’s raining lightly outside because it always looks like it is to me. This is called “energy rain”.

I began, immediately after each session of meditation, to try and see my aura. I’d un-focus my eyes and see faint colors surrounding my hand. I’d also see fizzy energy—it looks almost exactly like the tiny bubbles that shoot off the top of a freshly poured glass of soda. It’s made of tiny specks of light and shoots off of my skin everywhere, all the time. The specks fly at great speed and travel several feet away from the body, where I tend to lose track of them as they keep going on their trajectories without slowing down. These are part of our energy field, showing exactly how we interact with the world around us in profound ways of which we’re not even aware.

Given all of these little amazements, it was still pretty astounding when I started to notice beings at the absolute edges of my peripheral vision when my eyes were shut. There were two of them—one on each side. I’ve been calling them my co-pilots. I can (just barely) see them from about the waist up, with clearly distinguishable arms, torso, and a head that is always concealed behind a radiating light. At first, I only caught glimpses, but they were always there as (at the very least) a brightly glowing, moving light. They are there twenty-four seven and appear differently than any other being I’ve witnessed. I believe them to be my spirit guides.

Present Day: Daytime Spirits

My co-pilots are still there, all the time. All I have to do is close my eyes to see them. I can even see them with my eyes open in the right circumstances. When I recently went to the dentist for my regular teeth-cleaning, while sitting in the waiting room I got to watch a pair of tiny glowing arms moving around at the outer edge of my right eye.

At night, I see my co-pilots much more clearly when they often “come out”, moving further into my field of vision. Their presence is always profoundly reassuring and not at all scary. I can call on them for protection to place themselves between me and other beings that may have ill intent. It can get awkward when I notice them when I’m in the shower or other moments when we would naturally assume we’re alone. Now I know I’m not! Ever! But I appreciate the reassurance that I’m not on my own and always have support. These guys are very hard at work. They’re always moving and frantically working on things with their hands like they’re piloting a complicated space shuttle (hence the co-pilot nickname).

In addition to my co-pilots, I now see other light beings during daytime hours. They hang out in my peripheral vision. They’re much smaller than the co-pilots, and are just balls of light. They come in a variety of sizes and colors, and pulsate constantly at different speeds and strengths. It’s thanks to their differences in brightness and flickering speeds that I’m able to distinguish them from one another. There are usually around ten of them (more or less) around me at a given time. They move around the edges of things and come and go. I have absolutely no idea who they are or why they’re here. If there is a way to communicate directly with them, I have not yet found it. Thankfully, I usually can’t see them unless I close my eyes. This helps me tune them out while I’m going about my day.

Once in a while I’ll get a visitor who is breathtakingly bright. Again, I notice them with my eyes closed—while blinking or if I shut my eyes for a longer period of time. Think of sitting in a dark movie theater, watching the movie projected onto the screen. Then, imagine someone on the side of the theater switches on one solitary flood light. That’s what it’s like when these spirits show up.

I can say one thing though—I much prefer seeing spirits in lightbeing form to seeing apparitions or shadow figures.

Nothing about these lightbeing visitors is scary for me now. They help remind me to make best use of my time, and to live mindfully, doing the best I can at all times, in all ways. It’s easier to feel motivated when I can literally see my audience watching me. I’m never off the hook or off the clock. Every moment is witnessed.

But I’ve got to say, even with all of the activity I see during the day, it’s NOTHING to what I experience at night.

Love and blessings, friends.

The Meaning in the Messages

What I See

What’s Coming

Love Conquers Fear

Patience is the Key

More Posts on My Journey as a Seer:

What’s New in My Life as a Seer

What Comes Next

Choose Love and Growth

Another Lesson – The In-Laws

Reaching Out – Social Media Version

The Challenge – The Shift

The Universal Truth About Going it Alone

My Challenge – When Normal is Beyond Comprehension

Where the Path Leads Us

Why do starseeds come to Earth?

Why doesn’t “God” save us?

What about the ships in the sky? The UFOs?

What is the Shift?

The Evidence

What Will Happen?

My Personal Experience of the Shift, So Far

Changes to Expect

My Credentials

What Happens at Night: Some Basics

The Layers

No Control

Asking for Help

In Conclusion

Childhood Abilities

Several Months Ago: The First Signs Something was Changing

Present Day: Daytime Spirits