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Suddenly Unlocked Psychic Gifts & Becoming a Seer (Ready or Not!): A Personal Note

I haven’t posted here much lately, and it hasn’t been because of the pandemic, or politics, or social unrest. It may have started that way, but things have shifted. I started this blog to write about what I’ve learned and discovered about the meaning of life. The posts have been about philosophies backed up by my reading and personal experiences, which I felt comfortable explaining.

Since my third eye chakra opened, everything has changed for me. I’ve posted about it a couple of times, but things have intensified beyond my ability to maintain a good grip on them. My daily, constant encounters with the paranormal have given me a hard push into the role of humbled student and overwhelmed observer. I’ve been Seeing so much, so frequently, of such consistent diversity, clarity, and power I have no way to explain it. I can only describe it. I’ve been writing daily in my journal, illustrating what I’ve seen as much as I can (thanks art school!)

This has been going on for several months now. The novelty has worn off. I’ve realized this is my new normal and let me tell you, it’s stressful. It’s been SO stressful, that dealing with the pandemic and widespread social chaos in the U.S. has been a refreshing distraction for my downtime (I’m able to say from my place of admitted privilege and financial stability in the Pennsylvanian suburbs). I’ve been blessed in that I’ve been able to self-isolate basically since last March. My family is healthy and safe. We are able to provide for our needs. We’re incredibly grateful for it.

But, friends, I’ve had a persistent stress-twitch above my right eye for months and am grappling, alone, with a profound existential crisis. I’m married to a total skeptic and my kids are teenagers fully preoccupied with their own lives. There’s no one else in my bubble. It’s just been me and my journal and it’s been hard.

I may start posting again, but if so, it would be to share descriptions rather than explanations. If there are explanations for what I’m experiencing, I have yet to find them (oh, how I’ve looked). All I know is my new Sight is a direct result of my third eye opening, coinciding with a kundalini awakening. This post is a small plea to bear with me if I go that route. I know the skeptical take on all of this. I know how crazy it sounds when I describe the things I’ve seen. That doesn’t make it any easier when the intense visions and physical/emotional/mental symptoms never give me a day off or anyone to vent to face-to-face.

Some things I now experience: access to inner peace; lack of fear; a quieted mind; expanded awareness and ability to take the Observer role when needed or desired; direct, prompt answers to specific questions; mild telepathy; supercharged synchronicity; strong guidance from my intuition; intense and sometimes painful physical symptoms when my prana/chi/life-force is activated during mediation or visions; ability to see spirits; ability to see my guides; ability to see through the veil in a few different ways and strengths; inability to close my third eye (this means I have visions every single night no matter what, even if I try to “ignore” them); interactions with negative entities; Seeing the process of successfully “clearing” negative entities with (much appreciated) help from the other side; physically feeling my interactions with beings from the other side of the veil; interactions with angels; interactions with non-human higher beings (which interestingly are WAY less frightening than human spirits); visions of being surrounded by thousands of spirits.

I could keep going.

Look, I’m not here to convince anyone. Skeptic’s gonna skeptic.

I’m just here as a pretty normal person dealing with a giant helping of what in god’s name is actually happening right now. Yes, I’ve done a LOT of meditating and inner-work during the past year, but come ON.

My spirit team is gentle with me. Last week in particular was really hard and they’ve been easing me tenderly back into the flow of it all. But still. What in the WORLD.

I’m also here to declare (/warn?) that all of this is 100% accessible to anyone interested and determined enough, (whether you like it or not?) I’ve had no formal training at any of this stuff. I’m just really good at following through on a goal when I have one, even if pursuing it explodes my whole life or state of mind.

That’s all for now. Be good to one another. There’s a whole lot of releasing of hate and fear that needs to happen in this world for us to make our way to any sort of normal again. I pray for strength, guidance, and assistance for the Higher ups every single day and highly recommend it to you too, because trust me – they’re listening.

Love and blessings, friends.

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Living with an Open Third Eye

It’s been about two months since my third eye opened. I’m not an expert at any of this, and can only talk about what I’ve experienced, which does not necessarily reflect on what anyone else would experience in this situation. We’re all unique in our expression and perspectives.

That being said, I’ve found so little information about living with an opened  third eye, that I’m moved to put this out there lest it help someone else in a similar situation.

When my third eye opened, it opened for good. Permanently. From what I’ve learned, the only way to close your third eye once it opens is to diligently and completely strip all spiritual practices and any deep thoughts from your life. Otherwise, this is your new normal.

I’m profoundly grateful for all of my experiences, good, bad, and transcendent. I learn something new every day. Every single glimpse through my third eye is filled with awe and brings mind-blowing experiences that challenge me to grow, adapt, and rise.

I have no idea why this happened to me, or why I’m being entrusted with these encounters and processes of transformation. All I can do is surrender with overwhelming gratitude and do my best with what I’m given. It’s painful. It’s stressful. It’s isolating and impossible to talk about with anyone who isn’t also directly experiencing it (and I don’t know anyone who is!). It’s a huge amount of responsibility and changes every single aspect of life and our experience of it. It’s an unmaking and remaking. I have a tattoo of a phoenix but I literally feel like one now as everything I am burns to ash so something new can be reborn.

As you can imagine, third eye experiences are driven by the sense of sight. (Note: I do have some clairaudience, so I do hear aspects of these experiences too, but not as clearly as I see them. Think more in the vein of the unstruck sound). I see things now, day and night, every single day, that you literally would not believe if I told you. Both their consistency and variety is breathtaking. There is no telling what (or who) each moment will bring. At the same time, by approaching my visions with care, reverence, and specific requests for protection and guidance from my spirit guides, I have discovered a benevolence and loving respect in these encounters that I’ve never seen the like of in human encounters.

As someone who has never really felt seen, these make me feel completely seen.

As someone who has never experienced basic respect from the woman who gave birth to me, I now feel totally and utterly respected.

As someone who has always searched for a way to contribute to and help a world filled with those capable of breathtaking cruelty, I feel I’ve been set firmly upon my path.

Honestly, what I experience through my third eye is all so deeply weird but just as reliable in its content, quality, and character as my daily life is as I get up each morning to go to work and spend time with my family doing our mundane chores. I know what the routine is. I know what timing and situations will facilitate the full opening of my third eye. I’ve had lots of practice and tapping into it. I know how to focus, to push through the veil, and to use intuition to control my vantage point. I know who and how to trust, when not to, and how to invoke divine intervention with negative entities.

Day or night, I can always see multiple forms and levels of energy (my spirit guides who are always with me, as well as auras, energy rain, energy currents, etc.), but my third eye is always most open right after the first time I fall asleep each night. For years, I’ve woken up three to four times or more during the night, every few hours. It’s between these wakings that I see the most vividly and receptively, piercing the veil, and what I see is so startling I can guarantee you I’m not dreaming it. At first, the visions would get my heart pounding, my attention fixed raptly. It was just as startling as a bucket of cold water thrown on you in the dead of night, or to wake up at three a.m. with a roomful of strangers watching from the darkness inside your bedroom.

I’ll admit at first it was very scary – a deep, existential sort of terror. The seeing of what can’t be unseen, literally. There is no eyelid over the third eye to block things out. What’s there is there, unescapable.

Luckily, for now, I can only see things clearly with my physical eyes shut, so to get a break, I just need to open them. (Though just as of this week, I can still see through my third eye, through the veil, with my eyes open before I physically get out of bed. That’s when they “leave me be” so I can get on with my day. Like I said, so respectful!)

But that means that nighttime is extra exciting now. Especially with the pandemic raging, being stuck in my house, going to bed each night is the most thrilling experience of my entire life by far. The darkness is not empty – ever.

What I said in my last post is accurate. Do NOT try to open your third eye, especially not just because it’s a cool spiritual goal post or a neat bragging point for your ego. This is a consciousness-level life-shift that should be left to those the universe deems ready to experience it at a natural pace that’s in harmony with their energy level and spiritual development.

One message I am moved to convey to everyone reading this, no matter who you are or where you are in your path, is that you are never, ever alone. At any point of your day, or night, no matter where you are physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually, or what you’re doing, I can guarantee you that you have company. A LOT of it. You are observed, and guided, and actively affected in very real ways by the types of beings you attract. And honestly, it doesn’t matter if you believe or not – your company doesn’t care about your beliefs. They’re there with you either way.

What determines what types of beings you attract?

Each of us exists on scale in a spectrum of positive versus negative energy. Everything in existence is energy and this is the way it is measured. Dense versus light. Good versus evil. If you strive each day to do the right thing, to be truthful and kind and work to improve yourself, to enjoy life and express gratitude for your blessings, you attract one type of being. If, however, you are negative, selfish, arrogant, if you lie, if you hurt others, if you have given up and are mired in depression, you attract a very different type of being. The negative beings very literally attach to negative people like parasites. They drag them down and feed on their energy. They hasten the downward spiral.

Conversely, if you are a generally positive person, strive to improve yourself, and try to surround yourself with positivity, you will attract beings who will work very hard to hasten your upward momentum toward a peaceful, joyful, fulfilling life. They wait beside us, always, listening for our requests for help and guidance. They are eager to assist.

The choice is ours, alone, to make.

There is a darkness in this world that is hungry. It feeds on the weak of spirit. It sticks like glue to negative people. It is drawn like moths to a flame to those who shine brightly. The only way to access protection is through clearly defined boundaries, safeguarding of our energy and our space, and requests for higher assistance.

I’m not saying this to scare anyone, but to hopefully shine a light on a truth of our world that every single thought, action, and goal counts in very real ways. Intention matters. I truly believe that if more people understood their actions are always being seen and measured on a vast, cosmic scale, they might behave very, very differently. When we are hurtful (to ourselves or others), we dig a hole in which we trap ourselves, from which no one and nothing can free us apart from our own efforts to improve, heal, and make things right again.

Whenever we are in need of help, all we need do is ask. But you need to ask. You need to humble yourself and ask for intervention and assistance. I promise you, you will get it!

All you need to know as you forge your path forward, no matter what your journey looks like, is: intention matters, you are not alone, there is always help available to you, clearly defined boundaries will save your life and sanity, and most of all… you need to choose either positive or negative. There is no middle, gray area. This is an either or deal! Your actions and subconscious patterns will CHOOSE FOR YOU if you try and avoid the issue consciously, and will likely lead you in a direction you will not want to go. 

There is a massive shift happening in this plane of reality right now. We are not in control of it – we are along for the ride. But this is our last chance to adjust our momentum if we don’t like where we’re headed. Willful blindness, laziness, selfishness, or any fear-driven mindset will send you in one direction and one direction only. The only way to go higher is to put in the work. It’s not easy, but it’s worth it.

I’m always here if anyone needs to talk.

Love and blessings, friends.

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Third Eye Activation & Opening

The activation and opening of your third eye is something that needs to happen on its own. DO NOT attempt to force it open, especially for ego-driven reasons. When this chakra comes alive, it should be because you’re ready for it and the process begins in a natural way. Leave the Universe/God in charge of this one, folks. There is a lot of ego and fear that should be cleared away from the mind/heart/spirit before you begin to explore this new way of seeing reality.

It’s rare for this chakra to activate and open, though we all have the capability of it happening. There are some who will use psychedelic drugs to cheat the process. But I have heard stories of people who have forced their third eye open only to start to regularly see (for example) massive, dark beings looming over their bed every night and suffer a total mental breakdown. So, again, DON’T FORCE IT. When you’re ready, you’re ready, and your ego is not in charge of that decision. Your spiritual bragging rights are not worth the trauma.

I’d like to share some of my experiences with this chakra. Everything discussed here is completely objective.

HOW IT BEGINS

When the third eye begins to activate, you’ll start to feel pressure on the center of your forehead, between your eyes. This pressure can feel like someone’s using their finger to push at that spot. It’ll feel warm, firm, and constant. It’s hard to miss!

This can happen during meditation, prayer, relaxation, or moments of deep concentration. As things progress, the pressure can start up every single time you even think about your third eye. Lately, I’ve been feeling this chakra activate on its own whenever my thoughts and emotions drift off from center, as a little cosmic “hey, get back on track.” It’s a gentle reminder from Spirit of what’s truly important, that our reality is illusory, and to draw my focus back to where it needs to be.

It will not always feel like a narrow external pressure. It can also feel like something is pushing outward from beneath the skin, from the center of our head. Some have even reported seeing a protrusion form on the forehead. I’ve also experienced, when the eye is opened, a distinct feeling of a sizable gap having opened wide in the center of my forehead. It extends to either side about the same size as an eye would be. It truly feels like an unblinking eye has opened in the brow. You can touch your forehead to reassure yourself everything appears normal. Sidenote: Unlike the crown chakra, which I’ve found you can “shut off” with touch when desired, touching the third eye doesn’t seem to affect its function.

PRACTICING SEEING

Meditation is very useful in flexing this new muscle and welcoming the ability as it makes itself part of your daily life. Find a quiet spot, close your eyes, and wait for inner stillness. Set an intention to activate the third eye. You should then feel the pressure form in your brow as the chakra activates. This can provide a helpful focal point during meditation. The more you focus on it, the stronger it will get.

I also recommend looking around during meditation or quiet moments with eyes firmly shut. The goal here is to practice seeing as if the darkness has depth and space. The more you do this, the more you will see variances in light and dark, as well as movement. There can even be what I think of as a “lava lamp effect”, with a constant, slow swirling and shifting that can be quite hypnotizing. The effect is calming in the same way as watching the tides at the beach.

THE FIRST TIME THE THIRD EYE OPENS

The first time my third eye really opened wide, I was laying in bed at night in a dark room. I realized I could see the room I was in almost the same way whether my eyes were open or closed. I could make out the edge of the bed, the nightstand, the dim light cast up the wall from where our nightlight is plugged in down by the baseboard, the outline of a window and the doorway to our adjoining bathroom. I laid there for quite a while, opening and closing my eyes to compare the two views, transfixed and amazed that I could see my bedroom with my eyes closed!

Of course, when my eyes were shut, I could also see forms moving around our room that I could not see with my eyes open, which was another reason for my state of heightened alertness and curiosity. They were dark like deep shadows, about the size of a person, and moved with similar speed – walking, bending over us, reaching out with arms, moving back and forth.

SEEING THE THIRD EYE

Another strange, particular thing that happens when the third eye opens is you may literally see an eye when you close your eyes, right in the center of your field of vision. Mine looks like a normal eye, with eyelashes, creases around the eyelid, and a shine on the pupil. This eye IS your third eye. It symbolizes the chakra in its active state. When it appears, it can linger for quite a while. I’ve had nights when every single time I rose from dreams and just laid there in bed, the eye was there. It’s persistent! If you see an eye like this, which is distinct and lingers, that’s a great sign your eye is active and opening up.

SEEING WITH THE THIRD EYE

It’s hard to describe the things one sees through the third eye. Mine was very active last night, so I’ll try to describe some things I saw then. I’ve noticed my third eye is most likely to be open in rising from dreams. The thing is, once I open my eyes, it begins to break the spell and the effect fades quickly, but it’s also surprisingly hard to keep your eyes shut when you’re so determined to look around! The instinct to open eyes is a strong one, so I’ve literally used my fingertips to hold my eyes shut while I look through my third eye.

When my third eye is open, I can wave my hand in front of my face (in a dark room, so there’s no backlighting) and see the exact outline of my hand as it moves. It’s fascinating!

Last night I could see a light figure and a dark figure moving around my room. The light figure shone from within, whereas the dark figure beside it was made up of pure blackness. There were distinct heads, shoulders, torsos, and limbs. There were no details within their forms, almost like you might envision a spirit made of pure energy. The funny thing is, these beings tend to notice when I’ve spotted them, and will lean in closer or reach out to me. That’s what these did, as if trying to interact with me or study me as I studied them.

Last week sometime, I woke to find a massive, black skeleton-like figure, at least ten feet tall, looming over my bed. I had just enough time to stare at it and go, “Oh, wow,” before it noticed it had been spotted, spun from its core like a windmill and twirled up and away.

I’ve also seen my field of vision absolutely filled with distinct, crisp black numbers in neat rows, scrolling very, very quickly with the apparition of my third eye hovering right at the center. I can’t even begin to guess at what it meant!

It’s important to note I’ve felt no fear, or any other emotion during these moments. There’s only a profound curiosity and desire to witness what’s happening. I never detect any threat or maliciousness in these presences. That’s why I find it to be absolutely crucial to already be centered and clear (mentally, emotionally, and spiritually) before any of this starts to unfold.

The first steps we each must move through in the spiritual growth process are to get our ego-minds under control (rather than existing under its control!), and to process most of our major lessons of growth to clear away the noise and murkiness that clouds our awareness. We must stop seeing only our own mental projections, and practice seeing things as they truly are, without judgment or defensiveness. Fear comes when we craft mental stories about what we think could/is happening. Once we realize these stories are only figments of our own minds spinning and fabricating nonsense, can we release them. Seeing truth requires profound vulnerability and humility. It mandates we understand it’s not about US. We are only a small part of an infinite, intricate whole.

SIDE EFFECTS

You can experience mild headaches, nausea, and dizziness. It’s hard for me to pinpoint which of my physical symptoms are being caused by what, since I’ve been dealing with several different phenomena at the same time (clairvoyance, clairaudience, clairsentience, claircognizance, a VERY active crown chakra, and continuing, intentional efforts to confront and process my lingering soul lessons). Because of that, I’ll venture some of my vertigo spells could have been caused by my third eye too, but who knows!

I’ve thoroughly enjoyed the experience of working with my third eye and seeing what it shows me. It can be an intense way to discover all of the ways we really are never alone, and how connected we are to the fabric of Creation. It’s one of the highest gifts we can be given by Source. If you find the opportunity to take this journey, it’s because you’ve been trusted to be able to handle it, so be thankful and enjoy the ride.

Love and blessings, friends.

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Whenever Certain or in Doubt, Witness

We witness when we sit down, shut up, and pay attention. I haven’t written a blog post in a few weeks because I knew I needed some time for me to do exactly that. Creating space to quiet our own voice in order to pay closer attention to what Is, is one of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves.

What in the world is going on?

The only thing certain is that none of us have the answers. We’re all just trying our best with what we have to work with. If you encounter anyone who DOES claim to have all of the answers—run! When your religion claims to have all the answers? Question it. When your political party claims to have all the answers? Question it. When someone you know is driving you crazy because they insist they have all the answers? Question it!

The ego loves clinging to answers. It loves to be “right”. It loves telling everyone how right it is and getting attention for it.

There’s been a huge influx of toxicity into the spiritual community lately as narcissists and the alt-right use it to drive ego and fuel greed. Question those who use a platform on social media to convince you they should be your guru or wellness expert. Question those who charge you money in exchange for their answers.

Wisdom is free. Your best source of it is within you. You just have to clear away the nonsense piled on top.

And for the record, authentic truth exists in perfect harmony with science. Science is our understanding of nature, and nature is the physical manifestation of the divine. Question those who tell you to fear science and believe in their snake oil answers instead.

Everything you’re certain of is holding you back

The goal in life is not to collect answers and be “right” when we die. In fact, the more answers you hold onto, the more they will hold you back.

The way all of us go through our days is by telling ourselves stories about what we think is going on. When we attach to these stories as “truth”, they act like little boulders tethered behind us. The more ideas we attach to, the more boulders we’re dragging in our wake. If you collect enough of them, you’ll be stuck firmly in place with no way to advance forward until you let something go. The way to peace, happiness, and growth is by releasing our attachments—untie the tether and leave it behind. The goal is NOT to find better attachments. This isn’t a matter of whose boulders are the nicest. The aim is to let everything go.

Life is about learning. We incarnate in order to grow. It’s like a big cosmic school we attend for eighty years or so before going home. Just like in our traditional understanding of school, we get the most out of the lessons when we sit still, be quiet, and pay attention! Stop all distractions. Open yourself to what’s actively going on inside and outside of you. That’s where you’ll find the way forward. Our lives are orchestrated from beyond to place directly in our path everything we need to learn and face. Whatever you need will find you, not the other way around.

Being open and paying attention to the present moment is the ultimate goal. It allows spirit to move through you. It gives you clearer access to guidance from those on the other side of the veil who DO know the best way forward.

We can’t hear the guidance if we don’t hush up and listen for it.

Your inner witness

We are not our bodies. We are not our identities. We are not our minds and thoughts. We are a singular point of divine awareness.

Wherever you are, whatever is going on, there is always a deep part of you in the core of your physical self that is JUST awareness. It’s the Watcher. This essence is your connection to soul. The Watcher is always at peace. It is not at all effected by emotion or circumstances. It doesn’t get involved. It doesn’t judge. It doesn’t draw conclusions. It literally just pays attention and stays centered in peace.

When I’ve experienced road rage, I’ve reminded myself there’s a part of me that doesn’t care at all that some guy tried to run me off the road. This part of me is just silently taking it all it. It notices the anger and all of my scheming thoughts about what I should do about my anger. And it doesn’t care, it just observes.

When I lost my brother to a sudden death, I got better in touch with my Watcher. It was suddenly much easier to just exist and go through things as they happened and not expend any energy about it, but just take things in with a kind of numbness and keep living.

Now, I spend more and more time during my days existing not as my human persona, but as this Watcher. Meditation is a great tool to practice this. There’s no trick to it—it’s just hanging out in the present moment. Notice input from your senses. Focus on breathing. Chant a mantra. Do whatever gets you there.

Things will become profoundly simplified for you if you can shift to being the Watcher. That is the path to prolonged, true, inner peace.

Expectation and certainty will eventually cause suffering. If you can go through life staying in the present moment, taking things as they come without any preconceived ideas about how it’s going to go or what it all means, getting as big a kick out of the craziness of it all as you can while you can, that is the way to have a joyous experience.

The chaotic state of our world

There’s a lot of messed up stuff going on right now. Things are breaking and being exposed for corruption on a huge scale, everywhere we look. This breaking-down is what we need in order to shift to a better existence for all of us, but it’s massively stressful. It’s causing trauma in everyone going through it. But it’s not our job to make sense of it all. It’s not our job to fix anything that big. All we are asked to do is deal with what is directly in front of us right in this moment. Not what’s going to happen in five minutes, or fifty, or in ten years. Just now.

What can you do now? What does your gut tell you is the best way to exist as a loving human right now? Is there a simple way to better serve others? To show kindness or compassion? To show appreciation? To give yourself a break? A lot of times, the person we most need to be kinder to is ourself.

Be here. What can you do here? What does your heart tell you to do here?

Stop looking out at the whole messy world through the lens of screens. Start with your body and your health. How can you show kindness there? Then look at where you are, your space, and the people you share it with. How can you make things better for everyone there right now? What ideas are getting in the way that you can let go?

We all need to work on getting out of our own way. The person responsible for tripping you up in life is you, guaranteed. So, get out of your way. Stop complicating stuff. Deal with what’s urgent. Know your limits. Be kind to everyone, but most of all YOU.

My experience

It’s kind of funny to admit, but I’ve gotten really tired of stories. I’m tired of trying to tell myself what I think is happening, but I’m also tired of listening to others tell fear-driven stories about what they think is going on. As a writer, this has been pretty complicated to deal with. I’ve discovered a reduced tolerance for fictional drama (reading or watching), or current event drama, or social media drama. It could be the way my own trauma is manifesting, but I’m sure everyone reading this can relate to the feeling that just existing on the planet right now is fairly exhausting. Many things suck our energy, so I just don’t want to give my energy away to things that don’t put it to good, necessary use. Instead, I go for long walks. I do puzzles. I make things. I meditate. I journal. I cook.

I’ve successfully let go of a ton of stuff, and it’s left me feeling incredibly free. Now, when I see the temptation to attach to an idea or something that’ll suck my energy, I notice it. The noticing tends to kill the temptation. Because I know it’ll drain my feeling of lightness and freedom. It’ll weigh me down. And I’ve been there, done that. Not interested in going back.

Remaining in a state of open awareness gets us close to the void of the un-manifest. It’s a place of pure potentiality where anything can happen. It’s the gateway to the divine. I find so much ecstatic joy in lingering in this place. Being there is the quickest, most painless route through all the nonsense. I place no expectation on myself. Every moment is a gift and a wonder. There’s a breathtakingly casual, persistent awe.

When intuition leads me to make a choice, I choose the higher path. I direct myself toward the path full of the highest good and most loving version of reality for everyone. I live in hope and faith, and it’s what I honestly wish for everyone else to experience too.

I’ve been meditating at least an hour and a half daily, peppering in briefer moments when I detach and go within for a few minutes at a time to touch base and go back to my center. I encourage everyone to do the same. Anything we do can be a meditation—washing the dishes and feeling bubbles on the skin, smelling the air, feeling the ground under our feet or the clothes on our skin, smiling at someone, saying hello, eating a meal. Simplify!

I don’t have answers for anyone. All I have is input on what’s worked for me in getting to a healthier place. I send it out into the ether like breadcrumbs on a trail to lead those who wish to follow where I have gone, knowing we are all coming from and going to different places.

My increased time being the Witness or Watcher has led me to begin channeling. I’ve had intentional conversations with my spirit guide where I get to ask whatever is on my mind, and have found so much soothing comfort in the clear, loving, surprising responses. It’s been a profoundly moving experience. Please know we are truly never alone and always have our guides with us whenever we need them. They’re waiting for us to let them guide us in whatever ways we need them to, and need only be asked. For anyone willing to do the work involved in opening up to this level, I can’t recommend it enough. It’s magical and transformative!

COVID-19 has required all of us to simplify in many kinds of ways, but my wish for all of you is that simplifying is your gateway to rebirth as a freer, happier soul. Cut some weight loose, search for the inner stillness already inside you, and discover the wonders waiting there.

Love and blessings, friends.

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What’s Goin’ On: Spiritual Growth in a Time of Chaos

It’s the question I ask every day lately—what in the world is going on? If, like me, you’ve been enjoying a crazy voyage on spaceship Earth, you know what I mean. Whether it’s COVID-19 or police brutality, white supremacists or wildfires, murder hornets or incoming asteroids… there’s a LOT going on. And that’s just the stuff on the surface! Have you been wondering what’s really going on? All of the chaos that has broken out around us is merely a symptom of the real issues and events.

The truth is, we have no way of knowing with certainty what’s actually going on, and that’s the main problem causing so much stress. But there are some secrets everyone has access to that make riding out this rollercoaster more thrilling and less terrifying.

To catch a glimpse of the truth, one needs to first unplug and step outside. Savor the sun on your face, the wind in your hair, the birdsong and blue skies. Can you see it? Do you feel it? How the Earth herself has rejuvenated thanks to our global pause during quarantine? Creation is rejoicing! It’s beautiful out there and every one of us can connect to it even if it’s just from our doorstep or an open window.

I have some solid theories, supported by evidence from trusted sources, about the purpose for all of this nonsense. Take them or leave them as you will, because they are only that—theories.

Each of us has a reason to be here in this current incarnation, at this specific point in spacetime. We have our missions. And I guarantee for the wide majority of us, our missions have nothing at all to do with our day-jobs and daily routines. The lockdown is a gift to break us out of our comfortable circles that we turn around and around in every single day. Stuck at home, forced to detach from our beloved distractions, to stay still and pay attention, we have the chance to take a hard look at our choices. At who we live with and why. At what exactly is making us miserable. At what we’ve been doing repeatedly that we actually hate, or love, more than we’ve admitted to ourselves.

When we step off of our paths, the universe is designed to drop something rough in our way to divert us back to where we need to be. That’s just the way it goes. For many of us, all of these global events and catastrophes are a giant wake-up call. Because the world is changing. We’re rising up to higher levels, and if we can’t get with the program, we’re going to be asked to disembark.

How do we rise? By letting go of that which no longer serves us! By exposing the rot and ruin to be cut away so real healing can begin. That which has been harming us for as long as we can remember is being shown the door. It’s dying. It has lost. All of us have believed in things that it turns out aren’t what we thought. We’ve been foolish. But being foolish isn’t the end of the world, it’s just a chance to start anew.

What do we let go of specifically? Privilege. Selfishness. Intentional ignorance. Cruelty. Institutions built by the wealthy few, for the betterment of only the wealthy few, thanks to the undying labor and suffering of the many.

It’s all going. Clearance sale.

Have you noticed the patterns? How so many countries are being ruled by the same kinds of foolish, hateful narcissists with authoritarian dreams? There’s a purpose to that, just like there’s a purpose to everything in our world. What better way to expose the worst elements of our world than by enabling all of those foolish narcissists to do it for us? They show us what we need to do, and witnessing their crimes gives us the incentives needed to get it done. Yes, even they are a gift! Can you believe it?

That’s what’s going on. We’re transforming, on every level. But the exterior shifting is all due to the guidance of spirit. Now is the time. We’ve pushed it all to the edge, and now as it all seems to crumble to ash around us, the phoenix within finally has its chance to erupt into existence.

What can we do? It’s different for each of us. To find your guidance, you need to look within. You’re not going to find your answers on the internet or the tv or your phone. My best advice is to locate your pain points, and smash them. Explode them. Whatever is freaking you out on the deepest levels—whatever choice you’ve made that’s haunted you endlessly, but you’ve stuck with it because all of these excuses you’ve given yourself—smash it! Get the heck out of there. Make the better choice. Give it a shot. What’s the worst that could happen?

Over the past year, I’ve done that. I’ve unraveled my tapestry of pain until only the thinnest fibers were left. I’ve had to un-make myself—this identity that came with this body and personality when I was born into the family to which I was born. I questioned it all, on every level. I let go of every part that hurt. I set that crap down and walked away.

What has it gotten me?

You honestly wouldn’t believe me if I told you. But what the heck, I’ll give you a peek anyway.

I’m no longer afraid. Of anything. My baseline now is a state of inner peace. Sure, I get knocked askew into other emotions on a glorious spectrum, but I can quickly and easily find my way back. I’m fulfilled. I love my life, but more importantly… I love myself. Completely. Utterly. More than anything. And all of those attachments? Released!

What do you do when you achieve inner peace at the age of 41? Where do you go from there?

It’s wild, I’ve gotta say.

Over the past year, I’ve discovered my clairaudience, claircognizance, and (just lately) clairvoyance. Magical, impossible things happen to me all day, every day. I’ve literally manifested my will in ways that have left my husband, the witness, gobsmacked. I see and hear energy 24/7/365. I know when spirits are around. I get clear, decisive guidance whenever I seek it. I glimpse the future.

And I’m not special. At all. This is inside of us—all of us—if we look for it. IF.

But even with all of that, I know it’s not my place to change or “fix” anyone. Even if I can easily see what’s wrong and why and how to fix it, it’s not my place. It’s not my path. I haven’t been writing these blog posts as often because I know now that it’s not about me thinking I have any answers for anyone. I’ve been sifting through the weird and getting my feet more firmly planted, but what is there to say when you have solutions but can’t share them?

We all love our problems. LOVE. They define us. They make us who we are and become our safe place. They’re familiar and we can go around and around the same problem for a lifetime, savoring it, terrified of what would be left if we actually just solved it. I see that happening with the people I love every day.

If I was to suggest the solution, they’d get defensive, because you can’t make someone be ready to heal. You just can’t, no matter how much you might want to. They have to get there on their own, at their own time. We have to just be there to love people through their self-imposed hell. Because the only thing holding any of us back is fear. And fear is hard. It’s the biggest antagonist of our existence.

What’s going on?

A whole lot of fear. A whole lot of chances to shake this whole thing up and make it so much better.

Can we? Absolutely.

Will we?

Time will tell.

Love and blessings, friends. I’m always here if anyone ever needs some heartfelt listening.

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Embrace Change

People keep saying this is going to change things forever. This virus and this lockdown. And I’ll admit it makes me defensive. It causes an automatic negative reaction in me that I’ve been trying to understand. I witness my instinct to argue with them and say it’s not going to change anything. It’s one virus. Just a few weeks stuck at home. But then I remember that life is about change. The only thing we can guarantee for certain is that everything changes. It always will, no matter what. It’s not something to be afraid of, because it’s how our world works, and how we work. There is comfort to be found there.

The stay-at-home orders are creating an environment of forced introspection for not only only area or one country, but the whole planet. That’s huge. So many of us fill our days with busyness to escape the things we’re really here to do, the lessons we’re here to learn. We avoid and distract ourselves to delirium because we’re uncomfortable with self-scrutiny. It scares us. Why? Because we all know, deep-down that the only things that really matter in this life are the things that come from within. Our experience of life is entirely determined by our attitude, our perceptions, our opinions, and our beliefs. Every single one of us could be dropped into the same circumstances and come away with entirely different experiences of it. The biggest determining factor of what our life will be like comes down to one question only—who am I?

The only way we can possibly begin to answer that question is to spend time within ourselves trying to figure it out. This lockdown is giving us that, whether we like it or not! Who we are, why we are who we are, and what it means are the great mysteries of our time. The duration of our existence in these temporary bodies, in this weird point in history of planet Earth, has only one purpose and it’s not to change the world, or become rich and famous, or play the part of the hero in some fictional epic, but only this: to understand ourselves a little better. No matter how hard Hollywood and storybooks try to convince us otherwise, the truth is we are not the hero of our story. We’re the witness. The observer. The student. Your job and my job is to learn.

An ever-changing reality provides unlimited opportunities to learn. Our world right now is getting smaller, simpler, stranger, as our options of what we can do to fill time is limited. This is the universe telling us what’s going on out there doesn’t matter. It just doesn’t. The world will turn and the sun will rise whether we’re checking the news or not. Trust it to mind itself and instead turn your focus inward. Examine your daily life, your feelings, and your frustrations. I promise that for each of us in our own ways, our actual puzzle to solve right now is not COVID-19 or the stay-at-home order. Those are just the excuses we’re using to avoid our actual puzzles. We talk about the virus or the ways our routine has changed because of it so we don’t have to look at the tougher stuff.

Total honesty: my puzzle is that I have an instinct to fix people and relationships. When two pieces don’t quite connect I fight and struggle to find some kind of way to make them work anyway. I’ll keep doing this until I go crazy from it. It’s the lesson that has spiraled around and repeated in my life in many shapes and forms, over and over again. That’s the thing I avoid looking at. My real work right now is to let go of the need to make things work the way I think they should, to instead let people be who they are, to let situations and relationships be what they are, and accept that the actions, expectations, and perceptions of those I’m most concerned with fixing actually have nothing at all to do with me. I am. They are. We can be together as we are—just as we are—and witness the beauty of it. We don’t need to change anyone or fix anyone. We are who we are for valid reasons. We’re at different stages of growth and change, and the only way we can get to the next stage is to embrace this one and open ourselves to whatever comes.

Change. That’s what is coming. That’s what is so difficult to allow sometimes. We like to be prepared and have consistency. We love our routines and live by them, but that’s not what’s real. That’s not how it works.

People love to predict what they think will happen, but they don’t know. They can’t. Guessing makes them feel more in control when things get scary. They swear up and down that they’re right and they know how things will play out but those are lies built on fear. The truth is we don’t know. We just have to take the ride. Trust in ourselves and in fate. Have faith that nothing happens accidentally, that every thing big and small is intentional and planned for a perfect outcome. This place is not our home. It’s just where we come to learn. Our time here is limited but for good reason. Our only job is to enjoy the adventure of it all as best we can while it lasts, and embrace the knowing buried deep in our spirits that those controlling everything behind the scenes know what they’re doing and have our very best interests at heart. (Hint: the wizard hiding behind the curtain is YOU, your higher self, a co-creator of this world and your life along with all the rest of us as fractal pieces of the same glorious whole.)

This unusual period of time will change us. All over the world, right in this moment, people have too much time on their hands and not enough distractions to avoid the greatest puzzles of their lives. That means more of us will find the solutions and finally see the truth. Eyes are being opened and mass awakenings are happening. The real work is being done, faster than ever before. Broken relationships will feel undeniably broken. The answer staring us in the face that we try so hard not to see will be glaring brightly. Lies will stand out starkly. Fear will be blatant. So will love, and compassion.

We’re not here to earn money, to devote ourselves to the rat race, to accumulate the shiniest stuff, to compete, to win, to change minds, or to flatter our egos with the attention of others. We’re not here to be afraid of anything and hide ourselves away under blankets. We’re not here to live out the same routine every day for decades until we die. All of the things we’re being prevented from doing right now by these circumstances are things we’re not here to do. That’s part of the lesson.

So what can we do? Help others. Show love and compassion. Make human connections in whatever ways we’re able. Feel gratitude as often and in whatever ways we can. Do the hard inner work and figure out what we’ve been trying not to see. Reach a breaking point and leap bravely into the void. Behold the one thing that’s been driving you crazy the most, say to yourself, “I can’t do this anymore,” and mean it. Then give yourself the freedom to make a different choice. Choose change. It’s not a punishment. There really is nothing to be afraid of. It’s the gift we’ve been waiting for in disguise. There is always a different way to do things, another way to see them. We get so stuck in our ways and that’s what hurts us more than any perceived unfairness imposed upon us from outside. We’re the ones hurting ourselves the most.

So stop. Find a new way. Embrace change and see the wondrous places it takes you.

Love and blessings, friends.

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Overwhelmed? Shift Tracks & Practice Gratitude

Fear, grief, shock—negative emotions like these can be overwhelming. They have a gravitational pull that’s tough to fight against, making it difficult to find peace or happiness. The best way to combat this is by consciously shifting emotional tracks and expressing gratitude.

Any crisis in our lives in which we lose something or someone tends to turn our whole world upside down. Suddenly, nothing feels the same. We find ourself stuck in a world we don’t recognize or relate to, and can’t find the exit. It’s tempting to try and wish our way out, fondly thinking of what it was like just days ago—how normal it was then. The strangeness is just as inescapable as the lure of sadness and fear.

I’ve found myself adapting quicker than others to the upheaval of this pandemic, because—to be brutally honest—all of this feels easier to deal with than when my youngest brother died. I’m sure many of you can relate in your own ways. When a sudden event explodes your emotional life, it teaches you about coping and surviving. You’re then able to tell yourself, “well, I got through THAT, so I can get through THIS.”

Our experiences of this event will be widely varied, but with similar themes. All of us are adapting on our feet and doing the best we can (whatever that means). If you start getting stuck in the muck of negativity, pull yourself out by thinking of what you can be grateful for:

  • Working from home? No more headaches or stress from commuting! Wear soft pants! Have fun defining what constitutes your new “office”!
  • Missing a loved one due to social distancing? How lucky you are you to have someone that great in your life! Reach out in safe ways to connect and tell them how much they mean to you.
  • Stressed about still having to go to work? Know you’re providing something essential to the rest of the world and we are all thankful for what you do! You’re doing important work and are here for a reason.
  • Out of work or not getting paid? The universe has gifted you time! How are you going to use it? What ways can you use to fill your time? Is this an opening to take your life in a new direction? Enroll in virtual classes? Look for work in one of the essential work fields? Choose your path!
  • Your lockdown roommates are driving you crazy? Use the built-in little community of your household to meet your socializing needs when you have them, then find ways to escape: meditating with headphones on and calming music playing; go for a walk if you don’t live in a densely populated area (maintaining social distancing for safety); sit on a balcony or a sunny spot with a cup of tea; read a book you know you love and travel in far-away mental worlds. Consider all your options and delight in your choices!
  • Worried about someone who is sick? Give thanks for everything they’ve added to your life, tell them what they mean to you, and look for ways you can help.

Rather than focusing on what’s missing, focus on what you have

We’ve all lost something over these past weeks, even if it’s just the loss of a familiar routine. That’s a valid reason to have your feelings in an uproar. Own that. Allow it and accept it. Tell yourself, “Yes, things are different now, but…” and then list a few things you are glad to still have.

Get a piece of paper or notebook and write down an actual list of as many things as you can think of. Or, start with the first ten that come to mind and tomorrow list ten more. Make a new routine of it!

The biggest comfort to me after losing my brother was getting lost in warm memories of him. He gave me an incredible hug during one of the last times we were together. When things got tough, I’d imagine I was back there and he was hugging me with all of the love he had for me. It made me feel cherished and grounded. It also reminded me I still have him, just in a new form.

Transitions are tough but humans are resilient creatures. When pressed, we can and do adapt. You might surprise yourself as hidden, as-yet-untapped parts of yourself are awakened by this experience. New strength will form in you and you’ll be better for it.

Let go of everything except what really matters

Crisis forces us to simplify. We have no choice but to re-evaluate our dusty old To Do lists and only tackle what we absolutely have to. You might find when you do this that you’ve been bogging yourself down with too much for no good reason! Simplifying is freeing. It leaves us lighter and more ready for whatever comes next.

Humans get easily attached to things. We love our labels and habits. But the more we attach to, the more we are weighed down. Use this chance to let go of as much as possible. Discover new shapes your life can take, and the newfound joy this process can bring.

Delight in the adventure of it all

Well, if anything we can definitely say life isn’t boring right now! So, take the ride. Go with the bumps, twists and turns. Look at it like you’re a character in a crazy video game or movie and have no say in the plotline. Fight your battles as needed, and then take pauses to laugh at how wild things have gotten.

Each of us are living through historic times. Witness it! Take it all in so you have some great stories to tell after. Allow yourself little moments to go, “can you believe this?!” and then find new comfort in your rest time (watching movies, reading books, doing puzzles, creating art or music, getting projects done, test your hand at writing, etc.)

My brother died almost exactly five years ago and I still say to myself, “I can’t believe that actually happened!” It was so big, so transformative, that the wake of its impact still causes ripples. But for all of the pain his loss brought, it also gave me indescribable gifts that I give thanks for every single day. I learned so much about myself, and grew by leaps and bounds. I found new, deeper ways to appreciate him and the gift his presence was in my life.

It’s awful but true that we don’t really appreciate things until we lose them. The losses you’re adjusting to now, even if temporary and banal, will highlight how blessed you are in surprising ways. I guarantee it! After this, going out to socialize and be with others will feel incredible. We will not take it for granted. We will treasure our health and safety even more. We’ll see with new eyes the value of people versus the value of consumerism and capitalism. This process is connecting us. It’s showing us who we really are and what actually matters in life.

Take the ride. Witness the adventure. Grow from the process.

And, as much as possible, give thanks.

Love and blessings, friends.

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Don’t give into fear of COVID-19

The dark, Earthly powers-that-be want us to be scared of this thing. They’re trying really, really hard to keep us in constant terror of whatever might happen next. This is not for our benefit! This is so we stay easily controlled and tuned in to the news networks. Before, when a disease would spring up someplace in the world and begin to spread, we didn’t have smartphones to inform us instantaneously of updates from the other side of the planet. Instead, only the things in our immediate sphere of awareness would touch us. We were much happier and healthier for it.

The world becoming a smaller place has its benefits. It helps us feel connected to people both near and far, showing us how much we have in common. We can learn from each other and become stronger together than we are apart. But our all-present connections to each other hurt us as well.

Fear has a profound effect. It changes the energy of our body. Stress makes us physically ill in countless ways, not to mention the mental and emotional consequences. Being scared all the time, every day, is really bad for all of us, without exception. I’m here to tell you that staying informed over what’s going on in the world right now is not more important than your health. You being upset over the latest person to die in another part of the world, due to unknown circumstances, does nothing to benefit anyone.

Turn the news off. Stop listening. Stop reading. Give yourself at least a full day off. You have my permission.

I was reading CNN yesterday and I felt the knot of tense sickness form in my stomach. So, I shut my computer off and meditated for fifteen minutes instead. The knot in my stomach went away, and I vowed to try harder to resist the pull to check for news updates.

It’s very tempting to keep checking. I know. I’m right there with you. But religious folks can tell you all about temptation and how good it is for you in the long run (hint: it’s not). If you’re meant to receive a piece of information, I guarantee the universe will make sure it happens. You never have to go searching for information, people, things, etc. that are crucial for you to have in your life. If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.

We’re at a pivotal time in the history of the world right now, and not for the reasons you think. More than ever, now is the time to consciously choose hope over fear.

Things are shifting. The spiritual community can tell you all about it. I’ve felt it coming for many months (as have many others) as an unmistakable sense of “something’s going to happen”. It’s been called simply The Event. I’ve done oracle card readings about it this week and the results lined up perfectly with everything else. Even my skeptic husband is in agreement about it.

What we’re experiencing right now are the birth pains of the shift. A new Earth is coming and in order for it to arrive, we’ve got to endure the messy transition. Space needs to be cleared. Low, toxic energy forms need to be released. Look around us at what’s been happening. There’s been one thing after another with the weather, politics, societal violence, discrimination, and climate change. The list goes on and on. It’s all connected. The toxicity of our world is being exposed for healing. The poison needs to rise to the surface so it can be purged and washed away.

That’s what this is. Look at how this disease is forcing us all to slow down and spend more time close to home. See how it’s benefiting the environment as we suddenly ease up on our constant polluting of our world. It’s making us look within and spend time with the things we’ve been using busy-ness to avoid. Our sudden wealth of free time is a gift.

There are two opposing ways this can go for each of us. All of us, in the privacy of our hearts, have a choice to make that will determine the future of our souls, in this life and well beyond it into the next. Hope or fear. Love or pain. You declare your team every moment, every day, by the energy you put out. Even if your mind says “love”, if your energy says “fear”, you’re just fooling yourself.

This is the biggest choice you have ever and will ever make, in any life.

Timelines are splitting off. Those who choose fear are going down one very specific kind of path with a dire ending. They will live with their fear, and be given the freedom to use their will to embrace low vibrational, dense energy for the rest of this life and whatever lives lay ahead of them.

Conversely, those who choose love and hope are going down a different kind of path. We are the ones ushering in the new Earth. We’re birthing higher Source energy and transforming not only ourselves but everything around us. We’re the way-showers, guiding as many as we can down a kinder, brighter, lighter direction. Just by sitting—alone in our houses—in joy and gratitude and peace, we’re emitting tons of light to everyone around us. Each of us has the ability to do massive amounts of good right now, for so many others, just by doing whatever it is that makes us happy.

Make a list of 10 people or things you’re grateful for. Hold them in your heart and be thankful for being so blessed.

Understand your guides, angels, and ancestors are with you now and at every step of this journey. They are there to help you! If you need anything from them, ask. Open yourself to their benevolence. Request they guide you on a path for your most beneficial outcome. Ask for signs. Pray or meditate. Keep a journal.

We are not alone. Ever.

We’re invincible, immortal sparks of God-energy incarnated temporarily in fragile mortal bodies. We’re here to learn and grow. Our paths are pre-determined before birth. Our soul contracts determine what lessons we’ll face, and what challenges. This contract declares when and how we’ll exit this world. And when we do? When our time comes? We leave behind pain, fear, suffering, misery, and worry. We go to our true home, in bliss and peace, to an existence so incredible, so indescribable, nearly every near death experience recounts how souls beg to stay on the other side, and resist being sent back to their Earthly body.

Earth is the challenge. Earth is one of the toughest soul-schools there is. The energy on this planet is so dense and difficult, we’re praised as brave heroes for even trying to exist here. But we come here because it’s so hard. We learn more quickly, growing by leaps and bounds compared to other, easier worlds where we could incarnate.

Do not be sad for the dead. They’re in the better place. We’re the ones suffering—not them.

So, embrace your path. Wherever it leads you is where you were meant to go. Whatever timeline you end up on was also pre-determined in your soul contract. But by releasing whatever is standing in your way right now from a lighter heart and a better life, you can only help yourself.

Our paths will keep branching off from here. Some of us will be isolated in peace and joy, largely untroubled with smooth sailing from one day to the next as we ride the flow of life. Others will be faced with obstacle after obstacle, suffering, and disaster. These are not punishments but examples of the universe pushing you to question choices made over and over again (with the same painful results), and to release whatever’s only causing you harm. Accepting what’s happening now—whatever it is, and with no resistance—is the fastest way to move forward to something better. Just because you experience one thing, does not mean others will do the same. It is possible to exist in a peaceful bubble in the midst of what seems to be disaster. It’s just as possible to exist in a bubble of disaster while everyone else seems fine. Laugh at it! Take it as it comes. Do your best. Get through it. Don’t take it too seriously. Play the game and do so lovingly. Refrain from judging the experiences of others around you, as they have the free will to decide on their experience just as you do. We can only influence them through our love and compassion, hoping they soon will decide to be kinder to themselves.

There is no place for fear here. We’re being guided. We’re fulfilling prophecies and experiencing one of the greatest times in the history of this world. What’s happening now has never happened before. We’re evolving while incarnated, transitioning this world to a higher level for the betterment of us all, and all future generations.

You can do this. Enjoy the wild ride. You have a team of loving souls behind you, cheering you on every step of the way and they’ll be there for you throughout eternity.

Love and blessings, friends.

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The Nature of Our Reality is Illusion & Why the Fearful Are Fighting to End the World

The more we delve into the mysteries of quantum mechanics, the more scientists discover the fabric of our reality (including all matter, even our bodies) is mostly empty space. What is not empty space is all made up of the same stuff, just vibrating at different rates of speed. This rate of vibration is what determines density and all physical properties. Much like how television screens provide viewers a mirage of life out of different, shifting colors, our entire reality is likewise an illusion. Though, rather than colors, it is made up of different, shifting vibrations.

Plato’s allegory of the cave poetically described reality as we understand it as shifting shadows cast in front of us, the viewers, on the wall of a cave. He said if we were to get up and exit the cave, we’d see the “real” forms of these shadows, captured in dimensions far beyond our wildest imagination.

The spiritual view is that our reality on Earth is a projection of our consciousness. All of us are interconnected parts of a whole. While incarnated in this world, our experience is a reflection of ourselves. What we see around us in the world, our experiences, and other people, is a mirror of where we are in our spiritual growth. Nothing here is “real”, other than our Selves, which are individual sparks of the Source of all creation.

To simplify and merge all of these concepts, let’s imagine our world as a video game. Most of us don’t know we’re just video game characters. We aren’t aware that the identities we so carefully cultivate over the course of our lifetimes vanish upon death (when the game is over) as we transition back into our true states of being. That is when the fractal part of our soul that had incarnated in a physical Earthly body rejoins the whole of our higher self, the amnesia that comes with incarnation lifts, and our connection to all that is floods back into our awareness.

While we’re on Earth, and the amnesia of this reality has us in its grip, it’s easy to believe this is all that is. We buy into the game, which is programmed to include suffering. This leads to fear, and many of us aren’t able to find our way out of fear’s clutches. Many souls go through life unquestionably believing everything the game shows them. And, keep in mind, the game shows them only reflections of themselves. So, if they see the world as full of lack, competition, and misery, that is what they find. If we are unable to see the good things in our world, because we choose not to see them, it stands to reason those things would not register on our radar. They could be right in front of us, but free will always allows us to choose our way. If we choose fear, we find only causes of fear.

Do you see the trap this creates?

Many people go through their whole lives unable to escape their own fear. It determines everything they do. They don’t have faith. They can’t imagine there is more to life than what’s projected on the screen of their reality. They totally buy into fear and suffering, which produces only more fear and suffering. They lie, cheat, steal, abuse, rape, and murder because they see themselves as trapped in a game of misery and torment. They frantically gather all of the treasure they can find up until the moment of death—which they understand to be blessed oblivion, saving them from endless suffering.

But the treasures they have gathered—money, possessions, fame, power—are written into the code of the video game. They’re not real. They vanish once our character dies. Their frantic mission to accumulate was for nothing.

So, they die. And they finally, finally see that life was just a video game after all. They have the epiphany that we do go on, for as the law of the conservation of energy states: energy can neither be created nor destroyed, but can only change form.

Then their soul faces REAL accountability for their actions. They’re made to answer for every choice, all of the pain they caused themselves and others, and all of the ways they’ve failed to grow and learn at the school of Earth.

And they’re sent back to try their lesson again.

They re-enter the game as a new character, with total amnesia of what reality is, and fall to fear once more.

This can literally go on forever.

All of us will always find what we choose to see. It’s up to us. We are the creators of our world. If we choose fear and pain, that’s what we get. Unfortunately, most of us have to reach a breaking point before we are forced to make a different choice and look for something better. After untold stretches of time, we find we just can’t do it anymore. We decide ANYTHING is better than what we’ve been doing so far.

And we look for another path. A door. An option.

All it takes is the willingness to LOOK.

Because remember, we always find what we choose to see. We are the creators.

When we look for a path, we find it. Always.

When we look for hope, it’s there waiting.

If we declare we want lives of peace, and gentle learning, and joy, we find them!

And yet, there are still so many in this world with us—fractional parts of our true self, for we are all always One—trapped in fear. Look at the news, social media, and your loved ones. You’ll see it.

Look at the people we fault the most with trying to destroy our society and planet. Do you see their fear? Their lack of faith in anything but the cruelty of the game they’re creating for themselves? Can you begin to see how much pain they’re in? Their tragedy is we cannot save them. We cannot force them to choose a kinder path for themselves. Because they have the free will to suffer if they choose to.

Try to explain to one of them that they have a choice. Go on. They won’t listen, because we can only see what we’re capable of recognizing. They won’t see your hope until they choose to see it for themselves.

They are not our enemy. They are parts of us. They ARE us. And we can’t save them.

But threatening them with more fear when they’re already drowning in it effects no change. The only way to help them is through love, compassion, and connection. When we act with kindness, no matter what, we at least remove the possibility for more fear. We provide a blessed opportunity for them to find a breath, to feel a moment of love, and maybe, to give them permission to make a different choice.

Don’t buy into the game. Examine your choices closely. If there is a better, kinder alternative you haven’t tried, go for it. Don’t trust fear, because fear is just code in the game. It’s not real. It never is. The only truth is love. Love is what carries us through to the next world, and everything waiting beyond it. It’s the only thing we take with us.

And try your best to have compassion for the fearful. Our world is changing constantly, shifting to higher, lighter vibrations and there is no stopping it. This terrifies those who are most comfortable in the low, dark, negative places. They know they can’t come with us to where we’re headed, because many of them just aren’t ready to evolve. Plus, free will allows them the chance to stay where they are, as they are. Us wanting better for them isn’t nearly enough to convince them to join us in a better, brighter world. They know they’re being left behind, so they’d rather try to destroy the game for all of us rather than be left in their self-created Hell for eternity. They can’t see there is more to existence than this game. They prefer oblivion to their suffering, and can you blame them really?

The truth—which is there waiting for us to see it—is Love. Love is the whole truth. It’s waiting for us when we need it, because it comes from us. It’s what we ARE. In this world and all the rest. It’s there for us even when we’re blind to it. It’s there whether we believe in it or not.

So, have faith in where we’re headed. Choose love. Let the illusion of fear melt away. It will if you believe it can.

Love and blessings, friends.

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Reacting versus Observing

As we become adults, we claim the pieces of our identity one by one as we decide who we are and what face we want to present to the rest of the world. Many of these pieces come from the environment of our upbringing, such as gender roles, religious beliefs, and political views. We absorb ideas from those around us, subconsciously or otherwise, and our reactions to these ideas shape our concept of ourselves. Other pieces come solely from within, as genetic factors fill in the biological blanks for things such as appearance, sexual orientation, and our general health.

When we embark on a path of spiritual awakening, it involves an unlearning of who we are. Spiritual truth teaches we are much bigger than this form, this life, and this reality. To experience that for ourselves and to transform into something grander, we must let go of who we previously believed our self to be. All of these carefully cultivated labels need to be shed, one by one, like so much dust in the wind.

This is because our true self has absolutely nothing to do with our physical, mental, or emotional bodies. Who are we really? It must be experienced rather than told. To “get there”, we must first clear away all the blockages in the way, obstructing our view. We are the awareness within our core. We are the Observer of everything we experience. This Observer is calm, impassive, and ever-watchful. It is our experience of soul, which is eternal, invincible, and made up of only one thing—love.

A major milestone of spiritual growth comes when we realize we are not our physical being—we are much more than that. Our bodies change as we age, but the truth of who we are does not. When we get sick or hurt, it doesn’t affect our soul. The constancy of our inner adventurer is the thread stringing together the whole of our life.

Likewise, we are not our mental and emotional selves. Our thoughts ARE, but they are something we observe happening. They don’t come from the soul. They are connected to the mind and ego. They have as much to do with our soul as birds that fly past. In similar ways, emotions also “happen” the same way thoughts do. They are experiences we go on, but they are not YOU.

We each have several bodies overlapping one another like the petals of a lotus flower or the layers of an onion. The physical body is overlaid with the emotional body, the mental body, and the pain body. Ram Dass practiced wonderful guided meditation centered on the breath. We can all do this to gain better self-realization, witnessing the various parts of our physical bodies, the movement of our breath, and the passing of our thoughts in order to see that in witnessing these things, it is evidence we are not them.

If we are able to release our attachment to these pieces of our identities that we’ve slowly collected over time, we can get free of them. We remove ourselves from boxes we’ve tried so diligently to shove ourselves inside of, not understanding why we don’t comfortably fit. If we are able to stop limiting ourselves by trying to perform an identity, then anything is possible. No longer are we prisoners of our thoughts or our feelings. Just because a thought or a feeling happens, does not mean we need to listen to it or obey what it wants. We always have the option to ignore these distractions and redirect ourselves back on course.

We’re so much more than our physical selves, which are really just temporary containers getting us from point A to point B. Just like a car, we ride inside them for a while, taking care to keep them in working order (or not!), until we reach our destination and exit the vehicle in a miraculous transformation every one of us will undergo as we venture back home.

The best way to practice detaching from what weighs us down is by observing. Pull back to the core of your awareness and just see what’s happening to or around you. Use all of your senses to pay attention to your now moment—the sounds, sights, smells, feels, and tastes. Then pull back farther to observe yourself engaging in these senses, knowing you are not them, but only the witness to them. Pay attention to your thoughts as if they were birds. Don’t try to catch them, just admire their colors and let them go on their way. If you have an emotional reaction, label it as such. “Oh, look. Anger is happening.” If you’re able to do this, you immediately disempower your emotion because you have established distance from it.

The opposite of this calm, centered state of observing, is reacting. When we see upsetting news, or get cut off in traffic, or read something shocking on social media, or get in a disagreement with someone we know, these all provoke reactions. The reaction is strong, sweeping us away like a wave in the ocean, pulling us underwater. It engulfs all our senses—all awareness. We literally get lost in reaction. Our thoughts swarm, our emotions surge, our skin flushes, our hearts pound, and breath quickens. It takes us over, like being possessed. The energy of the reaction ties us to our bodies, trying to drag us away from our role as the Observer.

This is how lower, denser energy triumphs over higher, lighter energy. We are either the Observer, or the Reactor. Never both. But we have the choice between them, always.

Practice noticing your reactions. That’s the first step! Just notice them.

“Oh, I’m getting upset. Oh look, that feeling… it’s frustration. Frustration is happening.”

It might sound silly, but as soon as you identify what’s happening inside you, you automatically pull back into the Observer role. The reaction is instantly deflated and you can take charge again.

None of us are helpless, in any circumstance. We’re not here on Earth, in these wild lives we’re living, to DO anything other than take the ride and see what happens. We aren’t here to react. We’re here to observe.

Don’t believe me?

Try it! Practice for a few days reacting less, observing more, and see if you don’t feel calmer and steadier.

Lower, denser, negative energies don’t want you to be the Observer, because you’re easy prey when you’re lost in reaction. You’re more easily manipulated when you’re a puppet with strings to yank. Do you want to be someone or something’s puppet? Or do you want to have complete power over your experience? Power through being and observing, not doing.

Happiness is a choice. Peace is a choice.

So is anger and fear.

What will you choose?

Love and blessings, friends.