I haven’t posted here much lately, and it hasn’t been because of the pandemic, or politics, or social unrest. It may have started that way, but things have shifted. I started this blog to write about what I’ve learned and discovered about the meaning of life. The posts have been about philosophies backed up by my reading and personal experiences, which I felt comfortable explaining.
Since my third eye chakra opened, everything has changed for me. I’ve posted about it a couple of times, but things have intensified beyond my ability to maintain a good grip on them. My daily, constant encounters with the paranormal have given me a hard push into the role of humbled student and overwhelmed observer. I’ve been Seeing so much, so frequently, of such consistent diversity, clarity, and power I have no way to explain it. I can only describe it. I’ve been writing daily in my journal, illustrating what I’ve seen as much as I can (thanks art school!)
This has been going on for several months now. The novelty has worn off. I’ve realized this is my new normal and let me tell you, it’s stressful. It’s been SO stressful, that dealing with the pandemic and widespread social chaos in the U.S. has been a refreshing distraction for my downtime (I’m able to say from my place of admitted privilege and financial stability in the Pennsylvanian suburbs). I’ve been blessed in that I’ve been able to self-isolate basically since last March. My family is healthy and safe. We are able to provide for our needs. We’re incredibly grateful for it.
But, friends, I’ve had a persistent stress-twitch above my right eye for months and am grappling, alone, with a profound existential crisis. I’m married to a total skeptic and my kids are teenagers fully preoccupied with their own lives. There’s no one else in my bubble. It’s just been me and my journal and it’s been hard.
I may start posting again, but if so, it would be to share descriptions rather than explanations. If there are explanations for what I’m experiencing, I have yet to find them (oh, how I’ve looked). All I know is my new Sight is a direct result of my third eye opening, coinciding with a kundalini awakening. This post is a small plea to bear with me if I go that route. I know the skeptical take on all of this. I know how crazy it sounds when I describe the things I’ve seen. That doesn’t make it any easier when the intense visions and physical/emotional/mental symptoms never give me a day off or anyone to vent to face-to-face.
Some things I now experience: access to inner peace; lack of fear; a quieted mind; expanded awareness and ability to take the Observer role when needed or desired; direct, prompt answers to specific questions; mild telepathy; supercharged synchronicity; strong guidance from my intuition; intense and sometimes painful physical symptoms when my prana/chi/life-force is activated during mediation or visions; ability to see spirits; ability to see my guides; ability to see through the veil in a few different ways and strengths; inability to close my third eye (this means I have visions every single night no matter what, even if I try to “ignore” them); interactions with negative entities; Seeing the process of successfully “clearing” negative entities with (much appreciated) help from the other side; physically feeling my interactions with beings from the other side of the veil; interactions with angels; interactions with non-human higher beings (which interestingly are WAY less frightening than human spirits); visions of being surrounded by thousands of spirits.
I could keep going.
Look, I’m not here to convince anyone. Skeptic’s gonna skeptic.
I’m just here as a pretty normal person dealing with a giant helping of what in god’s name is actually happening right now. Yes, I’ve done a LOT of meditating and inner-work during the past year, but come ON.
My spirit team is gentle with me. Last week in particular was really hard and they’ve been easing me tenderly back into the flow of it all. But still. What in the WORLD.
I’m also here to declare (/warn?) that all of this is 100% accessible to anyone interested and determined enough, (whether you like it or not?) I’ve had no formal training at any of this stuff. I’m just really good at following through on a goal when I have one, even if pursuing it explodes my whole life or state of mind.
That’s all for now. Be good to one another. There’s a whole lot of releasing of hate and fear that needs to happen in this world for us to make our way to any sort of normal again. I pray for strength, guidance, and assistance for the Higher ups every single day and highly recommend it to you too, because trust me – they’re listening.
Love and blessings, friends.
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