Don’t give into fear of COVID-19

The dark, Earthly powers-that-be want us to be scared of this thing. They’re trying really, really hard to keep us in constant terror of whatever might happen next. This is not for our benefit! This is so we stay easily controlled and tuned in to the news networks. Before, when a disease would spring up someplace in the world and begin to spread, we didn’t have smartphones to inform us instantaneously of updates from the other side of the planet. Instead, only the things in our immediate sphere of awareness would touch us. We were much happier and healthier for it.

The world becoming a smaller place has its benefits. It helps us feel connected to people both near and far, showing us how much we have in common. We can learn from each other and become stronger together than we are apart. But our all-present connections to each other hurt us as well.

Fear has a profound effect. It changes the energy of our body. Stress makes us physically ill in countless ways, not to mention the mental and emotional consequences. Being scared all the time, every day, is really bad for all of us, without exception. I’m here to tell you that staying informed over what’s going on in the world right now is not more important than your health. You being upset over the latest person to die in another part of the world, due to unknown circumstances, does nothing to benefit anyone.

Turn the news off. Stop listening. Stop reading. Give yourself at least a full day off. You have my permission.

I was reading CNN yesterday and I felt the knot of tense sickness form in my stomach. So, I shut my computer off and meditated for fifteen minutes instead. The knot in my stomach went away, and I vowed to try harder to resist the pull to check for news updates.

It’s very tempting to keep checking. I know. I’m right there with you. But religious folks can tell you all about temptation and how good it is for you in the long run (hint: it’s not). If you’re meant to receive a piece of information, I guarantee the universe will make sure it happens. You never have to go searching for information, people, things, etc. that are crucial for you to have in your life. If it’s meant to be, it’ll be.

We’re at a pivotal time in the history of the world right now, and not for the reasons you think. More than ever, now is the time to consciously choose hope over fear.

Things are shifting. The spiritual community can tell you all about it. I’ve felt it coming for many months (as have many others) as an unmistakable sense of “something’s going to happen”. It’s been called simply The Event. I’ve done oracle card readings about it this week and the results lined up perfectly with everything else. Even my skeptic husband is in agreement about it.

What we’re experiencing right now are the birth pains of the shift. A new Earth is coming and in order for it to arrive, we’ve got to endure the messy transition. Space needs to be cleared. Low, toxic energy forms need to be released. Look around us at what’s been happening. There’s been one thing after another with the weather, politics, societal violence, discrimination, and climate change. The list goes on and on. It’s all connected. The toxicity of our world is being exposed for healing. The poison needs to rise to the surface so it can be purged and washed away.

That’s what this is. Look at how this disease is forcing us all to slow down and spend more time close to home. See how it’s benefiting the environment as we suddenly ease up on our constant polluting of our world. It’s making us look within and spend time with the things we’ve been using busy-ness to avoid. Our sudden wealth of free time is a gift.

There are two opposing ways this can go for each of us. All of us, in the privacy of our hearts, have a choice to make that will determine the future of our souls, in this life and well beyond it into the next. Hope or fear. Love or pain. You declare your team every moment, every day, by the energy you put out. Even if your mind says “love”, if your energy says “fear”, you’re just fooling yourself.

This is the biggest choice you have ever and will ever make, in any life.

Timelines are splitting off. Those who choose fear are going down one very specific kind of path with a dire ending. They will live with their fear, and be given the freedom to use their will to embrace low vibrational, dense energy for the rest of this life and whatever lives lay ahead of them.

Conversely, those who choose love and hope are going down a different kind of path. We are the ones ushering in the new Earth. We’re birthing higher Source energy and transforming not only ourselves but everything around us. We’re the way-showers, guiding as many as we can down a kinder, brighter, lighter direction. Just by sitting—alone in our houses—in joy and gratitude and peace, we’re emitting tons of light to everyone around us. Each of us has the ability to do massive amounts of good right now, for so many others, just by doing whatever it is that makes us happy.

Make a list of 10 people or things you’re grateful for. Hold them in your heart and be thankful for being so blessed.

Understand your guides, angels, and ancestors are with you now and at every step of this journey. They are there to help you! If you need anything from them, ask. Open yourself to their benevolence. Request they guide you on a path for your most beneficial outcome. Ask for signs. Pray or meditate. Keep a journal.

We are not alone. Ever.

We’re invincible, immortal sparks of God-energy incarnated temporarily in fragile mortal bodies. We’re here to learn and grow. Our paths are pre-determined before birth. Our soul contracts determine what lessons we’ll face, and what challenges. This contract declares when and how we’ll exit this world. And when we do? When our time comes? We leave behind pain, fear, suffering, misery, and worry. We go to our true home, in bliss and peace, to an existence so incredible, so indescribable, nearly every near death experience recounts how souls beg to stay on the other side, and resist being sent back to their Earthly body.

Earth is the challenge. Earth is one of the toughest soul-schools there is. The energy on this planet is so dense and difficult, we’re praised as brave heroes for even trying to exist here. But we come here because it’s so hard. We learn more quickly, growing by leaps and bounds compared to other, easier worlds where we could incarnate.

Do not be sad for the dead. They’re in the better place. We’re the ones suffering—not them.

So, embrace your path. Wherever it leads you is where you were meant to go. Whatever timeline you end up on was also pre-determined in your soul contract. But by releasing whatever is standing in your way right now from a lighter heart and a better life, you can only help yourself.

Our paths will keep branching off from here. Some of us will be isolated in peace and joy, largely untroubled with smooth sailing from one day to the next as we ride the flow of life. Others will be faced with obstacle after obstacle, suffering, and disaster. These are not punishments but examples of the universe pushing you to question choices made over and over again (with the same painful results), and to release whatever’s only causing you harm. Accepting what’s happening now—whatever it is, and with no resistance—is the fastest way to move forward to something better. Just because you experience one thing, does not mean others will do the same. It is possible to exist in a peaceful bubble in the midst of what seems to be disaster. It’s just as possible to exist in a bubble of disaster while everyone else seems fine. Laugh at it! Take it as it comes. Do your best. Get through it. Don’t take it too seriously. Play the game and do so lovingly. Refrain from judging the experiences of others around you, as they have the free will to decide on their experience just as you do. We can only influence them through our love and compassion, hoping they soon will decide to be kinder to themselves.

There is no place for fear here. We’re being guided. We’re fulfilling prophecies and experiencing one of the greatest times in the history of this world. What’s happening now has never happened before. We’re evolving while incarnated, transitioning this world to a higher level for the betterment of us all, and all future generations.

You can do this. Enjoy the wild ride. You have a team of loving souls behind you, cheering you on every step of the way and they’ll be there for you throughout eternity.

Love and blessings, friends.

The Nature of Our Reality is Illusion & Why the Fearful Are Fighting to End the World

The more we delve into the mysteries of quantum mechanics, the more scientists discover the fabric of our reality (including all matter, even our bodies) is mostly empty space. What is not empty space is all made up of the same stuff, just vibrating at different rates of speed. This rate of vibration is what determines density and all physical properties. Much like how television screens provide viewers a mirage of life out of different, shifting colors, our entire reality is likewise an illusion. Though, rather than colors, it is made up of different, shifting vibrations.

Plato’s allegory of the cave poetically described reality as we understand it as shifting shadows cast in front of us, the viewers, on the wall of a cave. He said if we were to get up and exit the cave, we’d see the “real” forms of these shadows, captured in dimensions far beyond our wildest imagination.

The spiritual view is that our reality on Earth is a projection of our consciousness. All of us are interconnected parts of a whole. While incarnated in this world, our experience is a reflection of ourselves. What we see around us in the world, our experiences, and other people, is a mirror of where we are in our spiritual growth. Nothing here is “real”, other than our Selves, which are individual sparks of the Source of all creation.

To simplify and merge all of these concepts, let’s imagine our world as a video game. Most of us don’t know we’re just video game characters. We aren’t aware that the identities we so carefully cultivate over the course of our lifetimes vanish upon death (when the game is over) as we transition back into our true states of being. That is when the fractal part of our soul that had incarnated in a physical Earthly body rejoins the whole of our higher self, the amnesia that comes with incarnation lifts, and our connection to all that is floods back into our awareness.

While we’re on Earth, and the amnesia of this reality has us in its grip, it’s easy to believe this is all that is. We buy into the game, which is programmed to include suffering. This leads to fear, and many of us aren’t able to find our way out of fear’s clutches. Many souls go through life unquestionably believing everything the game shows them. And, keep in mind, the game shows them only reflections of themselves. So, if they see the world as full of lack, competition, and misery, that is what they find. If we are unable to see the good things in our world, because we choose not to see them, it stands to reason those things would not register on our radar. They could be right in front of us, but free will always allows us to choose our way. If we choose fear, we find only causes of fear.

Do you see the trap this creates?

Many people go through their whole lives unable to escape their own fear. It determines everything they do. They don’t have faith. They can’t imagine there is more to life than what’s projected on the screen of their reality. They totally buy into fear and suffering, which produces only more fear and suffering. They lie, cheat, steal, abuse, rape, and murder because they see themselves as trapped in a game of misery and torment. They frantically gather all of the treasure they can find up until the moment of death—which they understand to be blessed oblivion, saving them from endless suffering.

But the treasures they have gathered—money, possessions, fame, power—are written into the code of the video game. They’re not real. They vanish once our character dies. Their frantic mission to accumulate was for nothing.

So, they die. And they finally, finally see that life was just a video game after all. They have the epiphany that we do go on, for as the law of the conservation of energy states: energy can neither be created nor destroyed, but can only change form.

Then their soul faces REAL accountability for their actions. They’re made to answer for every choice, all of the pain they caused themselves and others, and all of the ways they’ve failed to grow and learn at the school of Earth.

And they’re sent back to try their lesson again.

They re-enter the game as a new character, with total amnesia of what reality is, and fall to fear once more.

This can literally go on forever.

All of us will always find what we choose to see. It’s up to us. We are the creators of our world. If we choose fear and pain, that’s what we get. Unfortunately, most of us have to reach a breaking point before we are forced to make a different choice and look for something better. After untold stretches of time, we find we just can’t do it anymore. We decide ANYTHING is better than what we’ve been doing so far.

And we look for another path. A door. An option.

All it takes is the willingness to LOOK.

Because remember, we always find what we choose to see. We are the creators.

When we look for a path, we find it. Always.

When we look for hope, it’s there waiting.

If we declare we want lives of peace, and gentle learning, and joy, we find them!

And yet, there are still so many in this world with us—fractional parts of our true self, for we are all always One—trapped in fear. Look at the news, social media, and your loved ones. You’ll see it.

Look at the people we fault the most with trying to destroy our society and planet. Do you see their fear? Their lack of faith in anything but the cruelty of the game they’re creating for themselves? Can you begin to see how much pain they’re in? Their tragedy is we cannot save them. We cannot force them to choose a kinder path for themselves. Because they have the free will to suffer if they choose to.

Try to explain to one of them that they have a choice. Go on. They won’t listen, because we can only see what we’re capable of recognizing. They won’t see your hope until they choose to see it for themselves.

They are not our enemy. They are parts of us. They ARE us. And we can’t save them.

But threatening them with more fear when they’re already drowning in it effects no change. The only way to help them is through love, compassion, and connection. When we act with kindness, no matter what, we at least remove the possibility for more fear. We provide a blessed opportunity for them to find a breath, to feel a moment of love, and maybe, to give them permission to make a different choice.

Don’t buy into the game. Examine your choices closely. If there is a better, kinder alternative you haven’t tried, go for it. Don’t trust fear, because fear is just code in the game. It’s not real. It never is. The only truth is love. Love is what carries us through to the next world, and everything waiting beyond it. It’s the only thing we take with us.

And try your best to have compassion for the fearful. Our world is changing constantly, shifting to higher, lighter vibrations and there is no stopping it. This terrifies those who are most comfortable in the low, dark, negative places. They know they can’t come with us to where we’re headed, because many of them just aren’t ready to evolve. Plus, free will allows them the chance to stay where they are, as they are. Us wanting better for them isn’t nearly enough to convince them to join us in a better, brighter world. They know they’re being left behind, so they’d rather try to destroy the game for all of us rather than be left in their self-created Hell for eternity. They can’t see there is more to existence than this game. They prefer oblivion to their suffering, and can you blame them really?

The truth—which is there waiting for us to see it—is Love. Love is the whole truth. It’s waiting for us when we need it, because it comes from us. It’s what we ARE. In this world and all the rest. It’s there for us even when we’re blind to it. It’s there whether we believe in it or not.

So, have faith in where we’re headed. Choose love. Let the illusion of fear melt away. It will if you believe it can.

Love and blessings, friends.

Reacting versus Observing

As we become adults, we claim the pieces of our identity one by one as we decide who we are and what face we want to present to the rest of the world. Many of these pieces come from the environment of our upbringing, such as gender roles, religious beliefs, and political views. We absorb ideas from those around us, subconsciously or otherwise, and our reactions to these ideas shape our concept of ourselves. Other pieces come solely from within, as genetic factors fill in the biological blanks for things such as appearance, sexual orientation, and our general health.

When we embark on a path of spiritual awakening, it involves an unlearning of who we are. Spiritual truth teaches we are much bigger than this form, this life, and this reality. To experience that for ourselves and to transform into something grander, we must let go of who we previously believed our self to be. All of these carefully cultivated labels need to be shed, one by one, like so much dust in the wind.

This is because our true self has absolutely nothing to do with our physical, mental, or emotional bodies. Who are we really? It must be experienced rather than told. To “get there”, we must first clear away all the blockages in the way, obstructing our view. We are the awareness within our core. We are the Observer of everything we experience. This Observer is calm, impassive, and ever-watchful. It is our experience of soul, which is eternal, invincible, and made up of only one thing—love.

A major milestone of spiritual growth comes when we realize we are not our physical being—we are much more than that. Our bodies change as we age, but the truth of who we are does not. When we get sick or hurt, it doesn’t affect our soul. The constancy of our inner adventurer is the thread stringing together the whole of our life.

Likewise, we are not our mental and emotional selves. Our thoughts ARE, but they are something we observe happening. They don’t come from the soul. They are connected to the mind and ego. They have as much to do with our soul as birds that fly past. In similar ways, emotions also “happen” the same way thoughts do. They are experiences we go on, but they are not YOU.

We each have several bodies overlapping one another like the petals of a lotus flower or the layers of an onion. The physical body is overlaid with the emotional body, the mental body, and the pain body. Ram Dass practiced wonderful guided meditation centered on the breath. We can all do this to gain better self-realization, witnessing the various parts of our physical bodies, the movement of our breath, and the passing of our thoughts in order to see that in witnessing these things, it is evidence we are not them.

If we are able to release our attachment to these pieces of our identities that we’ve slowly collected over time, we can get free of them. We remove ourselves from boxes we’ve tried so diligently to shove ourselves inside of, not understanding why we don’t comfortably fit. If we are able to stop limiting ourselves by trying to perform an identity, then anything is possible. No longer are we prisoners of our thoughts or our feelings. Just because a thought or a feeling happens, does not mean we need to listen to it or obey what it wants. We always have the option to ignore these distractions and redirect ourselves back on course.

We’re so much more than our physical selves, which are really just temporary containers getting us from point A to point B. Just like a car, we ride inside them for a while, taking care to keep them in working order (or not!), until we reach our destination and exit the vehicle in a miraculous transformation every one of us will undergo as we venture back home.

The best way to practice detaching from what weighs us down is by observing. Pull back to the core of your awareness and just see what’s happening to or around you. Use all of your senses to pay attention to your now moment—the sounds, sights, smells, feels, and tastes. Then pull back farther to observe yourself engaging in these senses, knowing you are not them, but only the witness to them. Pay attention to your thoughts as if they were birds. Don’t try to catch them, just admire their colors and let them go on their way. If you have an emotional reaction, label it as such. “Oh, look. Anger is happening.” If you’re able to do this, you immediately disempower your emotion because you have established distance from it.

The opposite of this calm, centered state of observing, is reacting. When we see upsetting news, or get cut off in traffic, or read something shocking on social media, or get in a disagreement with someone we know, these all provoke reactions. The reaction is strong, sweeping us away like a wave in the ocean, pulling us underwater. It engulfs all our senses—all awareness. We literally get lost in reaction. Our thoughts swarm, our emotions surge, our skin flushes, our hearts pound, and breath quickens. It takes us over, like being possessed. The energy of the reaction ties us to our bodies, trying to drag us away from our role as the Observer.

This is how lower, denser energy triumphs over higher, lighter energy. We are either the Observer, or the Reactor. Never both. But we have the choice between them, always.

Practice noticing your reactions. That’s the first step! Just notice them.

“Oh, I’m getting upset. Oh look, that feeling… it’s frustration. Frustration is happening.”

It might sound silly, but as soon as you identify what’s happening inside you, you automatically pull back into the Observer role. The reaction is instantly deflated and you can take charge again.

None of us are helpless, in any circumstance. We’re not here on Earth, in these wild lives we’re living, to DO anything other than take the ride and see what happens. We aren’t here to react. We’re here to observe.

Don’t believe me?

Try it! Practice for a few days reacting less, observing more, and see if you don’t feel calmer and steadier.

Lower, denser, negative energies don’t want you to be the Observer, because you’re easy prey when you’re lost in reaction. You’re more easily manipulated when you’re a puppet with strings to yank. Do you want to be someone or something’s puppet? Or do you want to have complete power over your experience? Power through being and observing, not doing.

Happiness is a choice. Peace is a choice.

So is anger and fear.

What will you choose?

Love and blessings, friends.

Lean In to Your Emotions to Find Peace

In our busy modern lives, unpleasant emotions can seem to get in the way. We might have a nagging feeling we should be happier or more content with our lives as they are. That we should feel grateful, blessed, or lucky, but we don’t. And that’s okay. We have to make space for whatever emotions are passing through us in the moment.

Emotions are our direct link to our souls. While the mind distracts with thought analysis, worries, and criticism—our hearts know truth. When we talk about getting to “the heart of the matter”, we mean we can trust in our feelings to clear away the nonsense and help us figure out what’s really going on.

We all bury feelings we don’t want to face. Sometimes it’s a matter of survival, but a lot of times it’s about convenience or dread. We get scared, and push the fear down. We become overwhelmed with grief, and turn away from it out of a mistaken belief we should be “strong” instead (strong meaning stoic and wooden). Or something makes us angry, out of a sense of unfairness or because we’ve been hurt, but we feel it’s “bad” to be angry so we shelve the emotion and force pleasantness instead.

When we bury emotions in these ways, they don’t go away. Instead, they sink down into our spirit to be dealt with at a later time. They linger. Fester. The longer you go without processing your emotions, the more they will poison you from within. Soon, this poison wells up and spills over onto those closest to us. That’s how those we love most become the victims of bottled-up feelings they didn’t cause.

Deliberately ignored emotion creates the swiftest path to misery. This is because your emotions are literally your soul crying out for attention and care. It’s the core of what makes you you saying, “hey, we have a problem here! What are we going to do about it?” Buried emotions can become a weight we drag around with us night and day, causing stress, dismantling our health and state of mind. They cause a wide spectrum physical and mental illnesses.

So, what CAN we do about it?

The first step is self-care. Real self-care. What that is is different for everyone. Listen to your gut instinct, your desires, your small inner voice. What do you WANT? Rest? Space? Quiet? Someone to listen? To scream into a pillow? To run as fast as you can until your muscles burn and you fall exhausted to the grass?

Whatever it is, do that. Take care of YOU in a way that doesn’t negatively impact anyone else. Our primary responsibility—always—is to take care of ourselves first. To secure our oxygen mask before helping others with theirs. If we’re dying, we can’t be there for anyone else. Yet. Don’t set yourself on fire to keep others warm. No one gets to demand you do, and if they try, get away from them because they’re toxic.

After emergency self-care is tackled, the next step is to put in place a regular schedule of small acts of self-care you can practice every day, even if only in little ways—breathing exercises, five minutes of meditating, stretching, working on an art project, listen to relaxing music, find something that makes you laugh, get out in nature after work or between errands, take naps, say no to things, or call someone you love. Give yourself what you need in order to function, feel balanced, and cared for.

Look for responsibilities you’ve been shouldering you can let go of. I’m sure you can find some if you try. We’re all very good at deciding we need to do certain things for others when no one has actually asked us to do them. The world will not stop spinning if your home isn’t spotless, or the laundry doesn’t get done, or if you go for a walk rather than visit stressful people, or if you shut your phone off for the rest of the day, or if you close your eyes for fifteen minutes, or start a journal to spill out all your hidden thoughts and feelings in a safe space.

This is the path to healing. This is how we start to mend our wounds so we can begin to function in a much different, healthier, happier way. We need to heal ourselves before we can start to relearn how to be. Think of it as emergency spiritual care in a self-created hospital made up of focused attention to our needs.

Then, the next time we feel anger because someone was rude to us, let yourself lean into it. Instead of turning away, let the anger wash through you like a strong wave at the beach. It’ll crash against you, overwhelming for just a second. Feel it. Recognize it. Don’t DO anything, just be where you are and feel what you feel in the moment. Let it rush all through your body.

And then, let the wave keep moving. Don’t try to hold onto it, just let it be the motion and energy that it is. You’ll feel it soften and roll away. It’ll become less powerful, dissipating. Before you know it, before you can even formulate a response to the rude person, the anger will be already melting away. If you need to help it along, find a safe, secluded way to let it out. Sit alone in your car and scream. Throw pillows. Go for a run.

We need to honor our emotions as they occur, in the moment. Let yourself witness them without judgment. Watch them like you watch movies, as something interesting that’s happening. Notice how they sit in your body, and how they start out so intensely, but then so quickly dissolve into nothingness once we give them the attention they require.

Because they will dissolve. They always do. Everything in life is temporary and in motion. This goes for all emotions on the spectrum too.

Let them be and look for what they’re trying to show you. Emotions are like spiritual signposts pointing us to the way forward. They lead us to exactly where we need to go in order to continue on our path. If you walk your path with a clear head and a little bravery, it will take you away from everything that’s weighing you down and making you miserable, and towards true, lasting peace. It’s where all of your dreams come true.

A lot of times we’re sad, unhappy, tired, angry because we keep choosing an action that’s harming us. Maybe we’re enabling other people to take advantage of us because we think it’s the “nice” thing to do, and it’s easier for them to do that than to do the work to take care of themselves in the proper ways. Or we’re miserable because we are that person taking advantage of someone else rather than doing for ourselves in the ways we know we can and should.

Please hear me when I say we will always be made miserable by doing things that hurt us. The only way the hurt stops is by choosing love instead. Love yourself. Love those around you. Love the process. Love the opportunity to grow and evolve. Do the hard thing by doing the right thing. Feel the hurt so it can heal. Care for the wound and stop creating new ones. If you’re hurt, feel it. Honor it. Sit with it in the quiet of your heart. And then let it go. Savor the relief and calm left in its wake. This is where peace lives.

Love and blessings, friends.

Forgiving Doesn’t Mean Forgetting

Our attachments and pain prevent us from progressing towards a happier, more fulfilling life. A key part of processing our pain and moving beyond it is the act of forgiveness. By forgiving someone or something, we let go of the pain brought to our life, releasing ourselves from it. There are, however, common misunderstandings about what forgiveness is.

A great many people think forgiveness implies forgetting. That everything can “go back to the way it was before”, with the relationship reverting to former levels of trust and respect. They want it to feel like the incident never happened in the first place.

This concept of total, instant absolution is not what spirituality—or religion—asks of us. It’s what abusive, toxic people want us to think forgiveness is.

When something or someone causes us pain, it creates in us a heaviness and noise. It weighs us down emotionally, and burdens us psychologically. We devote far too much precious energy to the act of mentally replaying the incident over and over again, picking it apart and scrutinizing every aspect. With hurt feelings, we look for ways to defend our part in things, and to lay blame at the feet of others.

All of this is normal, but it’s not good for us to stay in this place of dwelling long. The biggest gift we can give ourselves whenever we feel wronged is to look for a way to process the experience, release it, and move beyond it. The longer we hold on to the weight and the mental noise, the more harm it causes. It can truly crush us. And by failing to move beyond the pain, we give those whom we feel wronged us the ability to hurt us even more, for a possibly infinite amount of time.

Don’t get stuck in pain.

Forgiveness is acknowledging what has happened, and agreeing to let go of our attachment to it. It involves understanding everyone involved did their best at the time, even if their actions failed to live up to expectations. It means declaring the incident finished, that we wish the others involved well, we send them love, and we are releasing all our negative feelings about it.

By forgiving, we are able to leave the past in the past. We stop trying to drag it forward into the now. This is a healthy thing to do! We must always strive to recognize that the past doesn’t exist, except in our thoughts and emotions, and we all have total control over our thoughts and emotions. We can choose to only hold onto the ones serving our highest good.

What forgiveness does NOT mean, is forgetting what happened. The reason we endure trials in life is so we may learn from them, thereby allowing us to act differently if something similar happens again and spare ourselves further pain. These trials might be avoided by staying away from certain people or situations, or by adjusting our own behavior. Life itself is a series of lessons. We’re defeating the purpose of life by ignoring the lessons it presents us.

Those who attempt to define forgiving as forgetting are actively working against the point of being alive.

By learning that touching a hot stove causes burns, we learn not to touch hot stoves. Forgiving the stove for burning us does not mean we can go around touching hot stoves without consequences! It just means we are recognizing it’s in the stove’s nature to be hot, and it wasn’t a personal attack against us when we were burned.

It is possible to forgive those who fail to be accountable for their actions. Being accountable involves the three R’s: repentance, restitution, and being personally responsible. Repentance is remorse or self-reproach for what one has done or failed to do. Restitution is the act of making amends; of returning or restoring to someone what is his. It is reparation for injury or damage. And of course having personal responsibility means being legally or morally obliged to take care of something, and being able to account for one’s actions.

There are unfortunately many people who cause pain in others, and totally fail the test of accountability. These people do none of the three R’s, and they go on to cause pain in the same ways repeatedly in many people around them.

Please understand it’s not our job to fix this people, or even to force them to behave differently. Their behavior is completely beyond our control, thanks to free will. We cannot stop them, but we can learn the best ways to protect ourselves from them. Forgiving them is how we break the ties linking us to them, setting them free and wishing them well as they continue on about their lives.

People who do not have accountability are not people you want to be linked to for any length of time. Without forgiveness, you’re permitting them continued access to your energy and happiness. You’re giving them the power to make you miserable for a long time. Please, spare yourselves that.

We are only responsible for our own actions and feelings. Take care of yours by releasing painful ties with love. Love will always guide us to happiness and light. You can show love to someone doing terrible things without losing the moral high ground. It’s loving to discover ways to prevent further pain. It’s loving to deprive others the ability to hurt us. It’s loving to witness who someone really is, and to hope they also learn and grow.

Forgiving does not mean our trust is restored or our respect earned.

Learn, let go with love, and move forward with a free heart.

Love and blessings, friends.

Ascension Sickness & Side Effects You May Experience in Living While Awakened

The point of a spiritual awakening is to shift focus to your spiritual growth in pursuit of enlightenment. When going through a spiritual awakening, you typically expect your spiritual life to evolve. You might not expect, however, the way this process changes other aspects of living as well. There are many side effects you may not even be aware are directly tied into your awakening.

A few weeks ago, I discussed symptoms that are experienced during the initial spiritual awakening process. Because the strange occurrences don’t stop once you progress through the first stages of awakening, this post is a discussion of symptoms that can be experienced when you’re living your life while awakened. Some refer to this as Ascension Sickness. As a “sickness”, it comes and goes in waves of varying lengths as your physical form adjusts to the evolution of your spirit.

Below is a list of things I’m experiencing right now, and often see discussed by others in the spiritual community. It’s unfortunately so uncommon to find honest discussion of these side effects, I wanted open up about what I’ve been dealing with in case it helps someone else. If there is anything you’d like to see an expanded discussion on, or something not mentioned here that you’ve experienced, drop me a note in the comments below.

Spiritual awakening is part of the Ascension process. If you’re not familiar with what Ascension is follow this link for a basic primer (but be warned, it’s quite a rabbit hole to fall into! Think of the movie The Matrix. Investigation into Ascension is equivalent to taking the red pill).

Whether or not you are aware of what Ascension is, our reality is already in the process of expanding all around you. The Oneness of creation is rising above the divisiveness of fear and hate. Polarities are collapsing into states of non-duality as we begin to remember the infinite ways everything is connected. What was merely 3D is becoming 5D. It is our choice whether to ascend and raise our vibration as our world undergoes transformation. The more of us that ascend, the better the chance our planet and us as a people will survive and thrive. Those of a lower vibration are so dead-set on destroying this world through greed, hate, and fear, it’s up to the rest of us to help lift this plane of reality to a better place through light and love.

I’m a few years into my awakening, with all of the intense initial side effects of my spiritual awakening process tapering off months ago. My understanding is that once awakening begins to raise your vibration in earnest, this is what causes the initial side effects. Your physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual being are all undergoing transformation at the same time. You’re evolving while incarnated, which takes quite a toll!

Of course, you’re not “done” once you make it through the first stages. Once “awake” you find a new normal, but everything remains in flux to a certain extent. Living a typical day-to-day routine with family, work, social commitments, etc. while awakened is a bizarre experience. As the zen proverb states: “Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.” Things carry on as they always have, but you are different in fundamental ways. The way you move through reality is impacted on many levels by your heightened vibration. And your vibration may continue to rise! If you commit to this path, you will keep growing and evolving.

Below are some of the things that have been happening to me. I continuously open myself to a deeper understanding of them. Knowledge is conveyed through the spiritual community, but also, and most importantly, from guidance within. Our various experiences as diverse facets of the same divine Source are by definition all very different and stem from unique perspectives. Not everyone will experience the same things I have and this is by no means a comprehensive list. As always, if something doesn’t resonate with you, leave it be and look for something else that does.

Also, with any worrisome physical symptoms, it’s wise to first consult with a doctor to rule out other possibilities first.

Tingling/Vibrating Sensations Within the Body

As your being becomes infused with waves of higher vibrational energy, you will literally be able to feel the energy coursing through your body. It’s a thrumming, shivery, pulsing sensation. It can be draining (sometimes causing insomnia) or enlivening. It can change from day to day or hour to hour. Be kind to yourself as you adjust to these new sensations. Focus on them as a way to stay in touch with your connection to Oneness and Source energy. They can make the “solid” world around you feel more ephemeral and transformative. This is a good thing!

Unusual Sleep/Dreaming

Lately, when rising from sleep I feel like I’ve taken powerful cold medicine or am coming down with something—the deliriousness is so intense. Sleep is heavier. Dreams are more vivid and weirder. Waking up makes me feel like I’ve just been yanked back from traveling in unfathomably far away places. It’s common knowledge in the spiritual community that we do much of our good work in this world while asleep, through astral projection, travel to alternate dimensions and other planes of reality. You’ll become very busy while sleeping, and you’ll feel it!

Sudden Exhaustion

I’ve had exhaustion hit me like a hammer in the middle of the day for no reason. I’ve had it last a few hours or a few days. It’s beyond the normal kind of tiredness, as it encompasses the physical, mental, emotional and spiritual self. It makes it near impossible just to function and perform basic tasks. When this happens to you, don’t fight it! Your self is telling you that you need rest, so rest. Do as little as possible. Listen to your intuition, take it easy on yourself, and wait it out. This kind of exhaustion means your energy body has either been busy doing important work and needs to recharge, or that you’re receiving energy downloads to help raise your vibration and activate your DNA codes. This is good news and not something to worry about!

Sudden Waves of Intense Emotion

Awakening can bring a supercharged empathy drive. The smallest, silliest things can make you emotional, and once you’re already emotional it can feel like you’ve been swept away with the tide. It’s intense and a way your energy is magnifying your experience. These emotional moments can also be blocks and attachments rising to the surface for clearing. The best thing to do in all cases is to lean into the emotion. Let yourself face it and feel it, and then let it go. Treat yourself with patience and love, always.

Consistency of Synchronicity

I’ve been experiencing synchronicity for longer than I can remember at this point, but it has become delightfully consistent lately. Almost every time I look at a clock, it’s a multiple of 11 (311, 411, 511, 811, 422, 544, etc). This is in addition to seeing repeating numbers or number patterns in all kinds of places (license plates, signage, computer programs, time stamps, etc). 1111, 222, and 444 are my big ones right now. I also experience mindblowing event synchronicities on a regular basis, along with my husband and daughter. We’ll hear a song at an important moment, and then that song will keep popping up in other places around us. We’ll discuss a topic and then find ourselves surrounded by it when we check our phones. I got the inspiration for my last blog post while on an exercise bike, then began listening to a podcast that surprisingly enough was discussing the exact same topic as my inspiration. It’s weird! But it’s also proof that our entire experience of reality is based on patterning and that nothing at all is a coincidence. When we see these synchronicities, it’s the universe showing us we’re tapping into the flow and reading the energies around us more clearly. Think of them as loving encouragement from the beyond!

Ability to Request Specific Signs

We are always surrounded by our guides and our angels. You can communicate with them, but keep in mind they do so through telepathy and through signs. An easy way to begin communication is to clearly and directly request a specific type of sign from them. For example, I never see feathers as signs, so I requested to see one. The next day I took a walk and there, sticking up out of the grass was a giant, beautiful feather! I found feathers waiting in my path for days afterward.

Stronger Intuition

When we clear the mind (or begin to), we allow our inner voice to speak more freely. Our truth and wisdom will always be found in this core of intuition inside us. It’s our compass, pointing the way. You’ll FEEL which ways you are pulled, which way to sway when making a choice, what to stay away from, and what to pursue. When you let your intuition lead the way, you’ll have nothing to worry about, no matter what may cross your path. It will always steer you toward the best course. Our culture does not encourage searching out quiet so that our inner voice can speak more loudly than the multitude of voices that are around us all the time. But I’m here to tell you everything will become easier, in every conceivable way, if you learn to listen to this source of guidance. Now, when I have a decision to make, no matter large or small, I don’t think about it, I look within to feel which way my intuition is pulling me, and I trust that first. The more you do this, the stronger your intuition will grow!

Activated “Clairs”

During the awakening and ascension processes, your senses may become activated, allowing you greater clarity. “Clairs” such as clairvoyance (clear vision), clairaudience (clear hearing), clairsentience (clear sensation), clairscent (clear smelling), clairtangency (clear touching), clairgustance (clear tasting), and clairempathy (clear emotion) may become activated. This happens as our blocks and attachments clear away, allowing our spirit room to expand our senses into new territories. This is an area I’ve been doing a lot of research, as I’ve been experiencing both clairaudience and clairsentience in increasingly strong ways. I get information through these senses that goes well beyond “normal”. It’s exciting to experience things that break out of the confines of our typical, limited human awareness. However, there is no rule book for this stuff. It’s usually up to us to find our way and figure out how to interpret what we sense. As with everything else, trust your intuition if you begin to experience things. If you’re open to it, welcome the experiences and see where they take you.

Experience with Collapsing Polarities

We like to try and define this world we live in by dividing things into pairs of opposite extremes: light and dark; day and night; up and down; left and right; in and out; wrong and right; happy and sad; love and fear; Democrat and Republican; rich and poor; white and black. The truth is that everything is One. Everything originates from the same Source. I’ve had a few intense experiences lately with the collapsing of these polarities. This happens as our vibration rises to a level where we are interacting with 5D energy. One example of this is that while meditating, I felt an overpowering rush of emotion that encompassed both the deep despair of loss and the elation of pure joy at the same time. It honestly took me an entire day to recover from the experience as echoes of emotion worked their way through me. If you also have an experience of experiencing two extremes at the same time, this is a good indication that you are witnessing this phenomenon. It’s a good thing! You are reaching a state where Oneness is actively overpowering divisiveness.

Living in the Flow State

As I writer, I became familiar with the flow state, where time has no meaning and you’re so invested in what’s actively happening the rest of the world falls away. There is no past or future, no thinking or worrying about anything but what has captured your focus. It’s a wonderful, heightened way to experience being that infuses us with joy and exhilaration. Following awakening, you may begin to live your daily life in the flow state. This is where I’ve been recently. Thought can’t hold me, I just go with things as they happen and deal with them as they arise. I don’t plan ahead or rehash anything after it happens. Living in the flow state lets fate and the universe be your driver, taking you where you most need to go. It’s a wild ride, full of emotion and challenges, but it’s the fastest way forward. You’ll skip all unnecessary detours and float along exactly where you can do the most good.

And More

I could keep going. There is much more to cover that shakes up our world during this transitional state. Your core body temperature may lower slightly. You may become wildly overheated when sleeping. You may experience severe body aches as different chakras open. Headaches. Nausea. Light sensitivity. All of it unexplainable, coming out of nowhere and clearing up on its own. No matter what, as long as you’re sure there is no medical explanation, just allow yourself to rest. Do some journaling or meditation for guidance and clarity. Take it easy. Everything is temporary, so move through whatever phases arise as peacefully as possible, without resistance. Good luck out there.

Love and blessings, friends.

On Loneliness & Why You Are Never Alone

The most persistent torment of my life has been loneliness. I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. For decades, I believed my worth and happiness was directly tied to how many people showed their love for me. I thought if only I could figure out how to exist correctly, other people would finally want to care about me and my life would improve. Say the right things, act the right ways, and presto! This problem would be solved.

But that’s not how any of this works.

The trap I was stuck in was in believing I wasn’t trying hard enough. That harder work on my part would make my family act in nurturing, empathetic ways. Or would win me closer friends. But we can’t make anyone else do anything they don’t want to do. We can’t change anyone who doesn’t want to change. I had to LET GO of my need for others to fill the void of loneliness inside of me.

Where Does Loneliness Come From?

The reason we feel such desperate loneliness is because of where we come from. We originate from the Oneness of creation. This current plane of reality we’re inhabiting as we sit here reading these words on a screen is not our “home”. When in our natural, spirit state, we are constantly connected to all that Is in infinite ways, always. We are linked telepathically and energetically to those we love, and also to the Source of love itself. The isolation we feel in this dense dimension is intentional and short-lived. When we incarnate here, we choose to temporarily forget about Oneness so that we may experience human life and all it entails. This amnesia helps us learn and grow. It’s an adventure we embark on for a little while before going back home again to Oneness.

Loneliness comes from our deeper awareness that we are not in our preferred, natural state of being. We’re homesick. We miss our connections to Love and Spirit.

Loneliness stems from the craving to be seen, understood, and accepted. When we are not surrounded by those who are like us, or see the “real” us, it causes a yearning for this kind of connection. But when life puts us amidst those who are unlike us, there is always a reason. It becomes our job to search out what that is, to find what we’re meant to learn from such circumstances. Isolation forces us to be introspective. It gives us no choice but to question things at a deeper level. To unearth larger truths.

The good news is that you can find ways to rediscover your connection to Spirit to sate the need of connection. But the only way to do that is by going within. Our relationships with other people will never truly “fix” our loneliness. What we’re really craving is a fuller experience of Self. Loneliness is a signpost that our biggest lesson can only be solved within ourselves, and not out there with anyone else. Find ways to love yourself more, to take care of yourself more, and go in search of larger truths. This is the way to overcome the lonely ache. The more you understand the beauty of your Self, and how fully you are loved, always—more profoundly than we can dare to dream—the more you will be able to release this pain.

You Are Never Alone

I mean that literally, by the way. We are always accompanied by a plethora of spirits. We have spirit guides, ancestors, deceased loved ones, and all sorts of higher beings watching over us all the time. They guide us and keep us safe. You may picture them hovering above you in the air somewhere, but the truth is they come through the energy of our soul. It’s our constant link with the other side, and our higher self. All of these beings who love you so very much are actually with you, in the core of your spirit.

They feel your emotions. They hear your thoughts. They see what’s up ahead on your path and are eager to help you in whatever ways they can. All we need to do is ask, and open our hearts to them. If you ask them for a sign they are there, they will provide it.

Psychic mediums help demonstrate how closely our loved ones are tied to us. They are able to sense their spirits with us, and help us relay messages to them and from them. I’ve had several personal experiences with this and always highly recommend seeking out trusted mediums to those who have suffered a loss. Those we love keep watching over us. They are with us in very real ways, and have a lot of opinions about the choices they see us making! Any time we think of them, or speak to them in the privacy of our hearts, they hear it. We just usually have a tough time hearing their replies.

If it wasn’t enough to have this literal team of spirits coming along with us on this road through life, there are also other ways we’re not alone.

Each life we live, every incarnation, creates a distinct persona. They are part of us—the larger “us”, that encompasses all of our experiences in being, from the time when our soul was first formed. Every person we’ve ever been, through countless lifetimes, is also with us, linked to our soul. They’re with us through all of our trials and victories. When we heal deep wounds within our selves, releasing karma and evolving into stronger beings, they are healed along with us. They’re rooting for us. Doing the hard work on your inner self helps many more people than just one.

When we do eventually pass on, something we will all experience is something called a life review. We will re-experience in profound ways every single moment of our life, experiencing things from other points of view so we may understand the impact of our choices on our self and others. We will have the opportunity to delve into the moments to study what we did and why, and how we could have chosen differently. What this means in that right now, you’re being observed by a future version of yourself! And not only that. If you’re currently with any other people, you’re also being observed by future versions of them, too.

Yeah, I know that might seem like a lot of pressure, or make you think that to have so many others observing means they’re all judging you. But remember the world of spirit is one of pure love. They want the best for you. They are coming from a place of total forgiveness and compassion. They’re cheering you on and trying to help you find new ways to succeed in all of your goals. And on a deeper level, they are all you. They are all just different, beautiful facets of the Oneness of creation.

What Does This Mean?

This means I talk to myself a whole lot more now! I’m not kidding. I know they’re with me, so if I need to try and figure something out, I’ll talk through it. Or crack jokes when I’m “alone”. And I find it impossible to take anything too seriously. We each have our very own peanut gallery eating metaphorical popcorn and yelling silly commentary and encouragement that we might not hear and will probably ignore.

It also means you have the whole universe inside you. It means you ARE the universe. You are love. You are truth. You are never, ever alone—in any sense. It’s quite impossible, really. So, laugh at the mind when it tries to scare you into submission. Let love conquer fear. You don’t need to be anything other than your beautiful, weird self. Spend less time and energy reaching outward to feel more connected, and instead try going within. And when your loneliness surfaces and makes you sad, let the sadness move through you as strongly as it wants, and then let it wash away with the tide. In its wake will be all of the eternal love of those who are with you, always.

Love and blessings, friends.

Awakening: Evolution of Consciousness

Spiritual awakening is often compared to what happens in the movie The Matrix, with Neo being offered the red pill, or the blue. Once you take the red pill, there’s no going back. Your choice is made and your understanding of reality is forever altered.

There is bliss in ignorance, and those of us who choose to take the red pill and awaken do sometimes yearn for that ignorance once again. But living unconsciously or “asleep” also means being subject to the whims of ego and fear.

It’s difficult to explain awakening to those who haven’t experienced it, since our ability to listen is limited by what we’re ready to hear. A great many just aren’t ready to take that next step. They’re comfortable where they are and are happy in the place of growth they’re currently at. This is the blessing of free will and the mystery of fate. Each soul’s path is unique and no one can walk it for them. We each must do this on our own, at our own speed.

Awakening is the process by which a soul becomes aware of the nature of reality. It’s existence opening a door which we can choose to enter, offering a path we can walk if we so desire, which leads to the evolution of our spark of consciousness in pursuit of enlightenment.

Awakening can be a permanent (abiding) or non-permanent (non-abiding) experience. It’s possible to have an “aha” moment, to glimpse the Oneness of all that is, and then to go back to your life as you left it, continuing onward with little change. An abiding awakening is more earth-shattering, in that there is no “going back”. We can’t un-walk that path once we start down it. The changes that happen within our souls and our understanding of life are permanent in very real ways. It’s not just this life we’re currently living that is effected on all levels, but our level of consciousness will never regress in development to a lower state in future lives or when we’re not incarnated.

It’s not an easy experience, and is not all peace and joy. There is a gritty, hard nature to the unmaking of our selves. We’re required to release all attachments one-by-one, to recognize everything we’ve been grabbing hold of in order to define ourselves, clearing all of these distractions away so our connection to the Source of all creation is stronger. It’s the process of remembering who and what we really are, beneath all of the noise of human identity. We recognize this world is just a dream we’re having, and there is no actual “me”. The person who is your body, your personality, your name, your job, your human self does not exist, but is just part of the dream. Your “real” identity is so much bigger and expansive than you can possibly imagine—invincible, eternal, beyond space and time, a co-creator of existence itself as a fractal piece of the God energy of the Source of All that Is. In the game of earthly life, you’ve chosen your temporary avatar and are exploring this world for a short while through its eyes, but that is the extent of its truth.

As jarring and unsettling as it is to unmake your Self, it’s necessary and we will all experience it eventually. It’s just a matter of when we get there. But there is an urgency now. Our world is changing. Its vibrations rising. Negativity and the old order are being left behind in favor of higher vibrations and a more unified, peaceful existence. The best way we can fully appreciate the gifts of this life, and the opportunities awaiting us all, is to awaken and join the effort to assist this transformation.

Unconsciousness is ruled by fear. Consciousness, by love. A benefit of conscious living is a newfound freedom from the pain of fear. By understanding the nature of suffering, it is possible to move beyond it. All of the destruction and hatred in this world stems from unconsciousness. By choosing to awaken, by releasing fear and embracing love, you’re helping mankind and creation in its entirety in unfathomable ways. It’s not a selfish pursuit, but a gift to be taken seriously so we may serve others more than ourselves.

Any singular awakening benefits everyone you come in contact with. Your energy transformation effects other beings in exponential ways. It is a ripple effect that helps show others the way forward, away from their suffering.

The entirety of the awakening phenomenon is part of the Ascension process. By raising the vibration of the energy of our souls to higher levels and evolving our beings, we’re part of a massive effort on multiple planes of existence, guided by higher powers, to work to save this injured planet along with its suffering beings. The higher path is the way we save the Earth, plants, animals, insects, people—everything. The lower path puts ego’s fear above all else, happily destroying anything that stands in its way.

We’ve entered a time when we can no longer remain in the middle ground. Our choice must be made—to evolve, or to be left behind. I’m urging all of you reading this to make the choice of love, to choose freedom from suffering, to expand your wings, to love yourself as much as we love you, and to come with us on this adventure. There are only better things waiting for us ahead as we embark on this wondrous journey together.

Love and blessings, friends.

Life Isn’t a Story: Dismantle Your Conditioning

Our entertainment has failed us. It’s been psychologically harming us. It promises us a happily ever after. The perfection of the ideal finale. The villain is vanquished, the hero prevails, two flawless lovers kiss, we fade to black, and the story is over. Everywhere we turn, we’re surrounded by this template of storytelling. TV, movies, books, comics, news, magazines, social media. It’s what we know. It’s how we assume things go. But not enough emphasis is paid on explaining the purpose of Story. Too many of us expect our lives to play out the way the movies do, and are sorely disappointed when they don’t.

Story captures knowledge in a neat package to be easily retold and passed down. It’s how we attempt to understand our world. We make sense of things through stories we hear, or those we tell ourselves. Since the beginning of time, Story is how we’ve explained to others how things are. There’s an established pattern to storytelling, and it goes like this:

Stories have a linear progression where things move forward through space to another point further away. Usually, the subject of the story is left in better circumstances than they began. They endure the trial of the climax, things quiet down, then wrap up with a satisfying resolution. Subconsciously, after noticing this pattern in the stories we hear, we begin to expect this pattern to play out for us too.

Instead, we’re faced with Reality, which is entirely different than Story. Reality goes something like this:

We begin at the outermost point of the spiral and progress inward. We do not travel outward. Our journey circles us around the same inner point, over and over again. We relive the same kinds of challenges, the same patterns, the same themes. The longer we walk the path, the most intense things become. We’re given less space to move, we face challenges more quickly, and feel them more keenly. Reality is a journey into our Selves.

Believing our path is supposed to take us somewhere wildly different than we already are, where everything will be swiftly resolved in a satisfying way, and we will live happily ever after in perfection, is Myth. It’s Story. And Story is not Life.

Because of this misguided belief that Story is Life, we are too hard on ourselves. Our expectations are extremely skewed. We lament we haven’t met our Princess or Prince Charming, the evil menace has been allowed to survive, we don’t live in a glorious castle, we aren’t adored by the masses, we’re not rich and powerful, and not the epitome of success.

We must look hard at this tendency and restrict Story to its useful place. We must not allow it to destroy our hope, and our capacity for joy. It’s not a failure if your life isn’t as pretty as a fairytale, or any other kind of Story you’re told. Casting yourself as the hero of your tale doesn’t properly allow for the blessing of failure. For only through failure do we learn, gain strength, and grow. Likewise, casting others as the villain doesn’t permit them their humanity. None of us are perfect while in these flawed human forms, but all of us—without exception—are interconnected fractal pieces of the same divine Source energy. We’re all made of pure love and we all have the same potential.

As an author, I’ve delved deep into the truth of the difference of Story and Reality. Story requires us to torment our hero; to throw them into peril so they can overcome it and triumph. It’s not an exciting Story unless something awful happens to the ones we love most. Many times, I’ve written a book where my beloved characters have finally found their happily ever after, only to be asked for a sequel. A sequel means more peril, more torment, a diversion from the happy ending into more danger. Without that, the Story is boring and unfulfilling.

Story has an established template. All Stories are just versions of the same thing, with the details changed around.

Reality has no template. It’s what we make of it. We’re not required to go through a specific period of torment to reach our happy ending. In fact, our truth is that there is no ending!

Think about that. There is no end. Sure, this life will finish, but we’ll go on. The lives we’ve touched will also go on, and our impact on them will extend our presence infinitely.

The thing about spirals is that if you look at them from afar, they resemble a circle. A singular point. I’d argue that our experience of life is also like a singular point. The scenery changes around us, but we remain where we are, which is the Now. Our past is irrelevant and likewise our future. All that ever matters is where you are Now. What you’re dealing with Now. What you’re carrying on your back Now. What you’re clinging to. What’s holding you back. Not what’s behind you or in front of you. What’s here. Right here.

Anything you need for your journey through life is found within. It’s not out there in the world. You don’t need to go on an epic quest to find anything. There is no hero coming to save you, and you’re not required to go save anyone else. Rather, use your senses to explore your Now more profoundly. Intensify the way you feel, see, listen, speak, touch, smell, and taste. Spend a lot of time with yourself. Stop ignoring Reality in favor of the simple, escapist thrill of Story. Leave Story behind and instead discover your truth. Story is a great distraction, but it has nothing to do with intuition and our connection to the divine. Our real guidance comes from Being, which is the origin of Story. We need to literally go right to the Source to really discover what’s really going on.

Releasing the mirage of Story is an important stage in our growth. When we stop expecting things to play out a certain way, and instead investigate how they are actually happening, we’ll travel exactly where we need to go in our spiral path. We’ll free ourselves from the burdens we’ve placed upon ourselves. We can realize we don’t need to resemble a character in a Story in order to be valid and perfect in our own ways.

Let go of what you’ve been conditioned to want. The only perfection is found in the God energy. Humans are not and will never be perfect. Human “perfection”, when it is attained, is always hollow and sad because our value is not in what adventures we’ve had, the place we live, the way we look, or the details of our romances. We’re not failures if our life is not like a movie. We’re beings who never “fade to black”. We learn, and grow, and climb higher with each twist of the spiral path we walk. There is no limit to how far we may rise, or how long we can take to get there.

Story always has conditions, but Reality is whatever you make of it.

So, what will YOU make of it?

Love and blessings, friends.

Good News: You Can’t Save the World

If you’re anything like me, when you see things in the world around you going awry, a little voice speaks up inside saying it’s your moral duty as a Good Person to try and fix it. That it’s your job to do everything in your power to… (cue dramatic music) Save the World!

This idea is ridiculous and misguided. I’ll explain why.

To start, we need to take a wider view of things, and more specifically with the question of what exactly you are. You are a soul having a temporary experience in a human body. You are energy in a meat suit. Where did this energy come from? From where all energy comes from—the Source of all creation.

We are all teeny tiny fractal reflections of the Source. We are each a single drop of water in the great ocean of existence. We are a small part of the whole. “The whole” encompasses all of existence. Being originates from the Source or God energy.

With me so far?

You are a portion of the Oneness of Divinity having a human experience, and there actually is no singular, isolated “you” at all. Your human identity is an illusion. The truth is we are all connected. We are all the same energy, different reflections of the same Source. What this translates to is that when you feel you have to “Save the World”, that would mean God would be trying to save God from God. See the ridiculousness now?

Have faith that God knows what It is doing. After all, It has been orchestrating the entirety of existence for all of time. It’s pretty good at this stuff. We do not have the ability to see the whole plan for our world. That perspective is beyond us in this form. It’s not our place to fight the tides and stand in the way of What Is.

We’re not here to save the world. We’re here to learn, to grow our selves, to face a specific set of challenges we’ve decided on ahead of time, and to love. We incarnated with exactly the right body and skill set to face these specific tasks. We don’t even need to go looking for them, because if we just follow our path and our intuition, we will get exactly where we need to go.

Also, that voice inside telling you it’s your duty to save the world? That’s ego. That’s the human mind indulging in the ultimate arrogance of thinking it knows better than God. We don’t know the paths of anyone else. We can’t. It’s beyond us. And that’s okay. We need to respect the paths of everyone who is not us, without knowing where they’ve come from or what they’ve been through. We can show them compassion, but then we need to get out of their way. Because just like you can’t save the world, you also can’t save anyone else but yourself.

Everything that Is is made up of patterns. Fractals. This reality is just patterns within patterns. The best thing you can do, rather than worrying about rearranging the whole puzzle, is to identify your own patterns. See what keeps repeating in your life. See where the stress points are. See where your fear lives. Then investigate that. Look into it as hard as you can to figure out what’s going on there, way down deep below all of the noise and clutter. Find the heart of your truths. And then break the pattern! Make a different choice. The way you save the world is by saving YOU.

Don’t think that’s good enough? That saving YOU isn’t enough? Consider that everything you know about reality is strictly through your own particular vantage point. Your senses. Your human experience. We’re biased. We have no way of seeing or experiencing the world as anyone else. But, if you save yourself and transform the way you experience life, you transform everything! You will see and feel everything differently. But more than that, you are paving the way for everyone around you to do the same thing. You’re showing them the way. Giving them courage to save themselves too. After all, as interconnected energy, we have the ability to influence those in our sphere without even trying. Whatever you’re putting out there is being picked up by every single being in your path. So give them something good! Give them hope and love and compassion. By lifting ourselves up, we lift up the whole world.

You can’t save the world. You’re off the hook. Being the best version of you is enough. I promise.

Love and blessings, friends.